Hi there, a few years ago I found out that I was able to dissociate and obviously this has left me feeling very emotional and insecure. I am frightened.
My life couldn’t be any worse. Right now I am unemployed and struggling financially due to bills and debts that have mounted up over the years. I suffer from depression and am also on the cusp of diabetes.
Twenty odd years ago, a colleague at work decided to set me up and stole some money from the petty cash tin. Obviously as I was the only black member working there I was immediately suspected of the crime. My employment ended with the law firm and although no legal action was taken against me, I have spent the last twenty three tears with my reputation in tatters and I have not been able to hold down a job in all that time. The last time I worked was a few years ago and during that time, another person that I worked with went into my bag when I was away from it and placed a reciept from her wallet into my wallet. I only found it when I got home but the message was clear: We know about you.
I was shocked and saddened to think that over 13 years had passed at that point but yet, I was still seen as an untrustworthy person. The next day I was officially sacked for some made up reason. At 10:30 that morning I was told to leave. That was day 11 of my employment at that company.
Since then I have largely just ‘existed’. I survive on government handouts that do not support me in any way at all. I have no family. My family chose to believe the woman who framed me and kind of turned their backs on me when they thought I was a thief – although they never stopped talking to me. My sister also informed my close school friends about my alleged thieving and obviously I now have not one close friend left. No family and no friends to ask for help from.
A few years ago I found out that I was abused as a child (and since…). When I attempted to alert my brother and sisters about our dire situation, they again turned their backs on me
– and I don’t think that at this point in our relationship there will ever be a reconciliation.
I have about £10,000 of accumulated debts that I am struggling to pay off at £1.00 per calendar month. I know that I will not be able to pay them all off right from the jump but anything that anyone can donate to my Paypal will be grately received.
Thanks in advance
Sue
Paypal.me/suethorpe