Hi there, a few years ago I found out that I was able to dissociate and obviously this has left me feeling very emotional and insecure. I am frightened.
My life couldn’t be any worse. Right now I am unemployed and struggling financially due to bills and debts that have mounted up over the years. I suffer from depression and am also on the cusp of diabetes.
Twenty odd years ago, a colleague at work decided to set me up and stole some money from the petty cash tin. Obviously as I was the only black member working there I was immediately suspected of the crime. My employment ended with the law firm and although no legal action was taken against me, I have spent the last twenty three tears with my reputation in tatters and I have not been able to hold down a job in all that time. The last time I worked was a few years ago and during that time, another person that I worked with went into my bag when I was away from it and placed a reciept from her wallet into my wallet. I only found it when I got home but the message was clear: We know about you.
I was shocked and saddened to think that over 13 years had passed at that point but yet, I was still seen as an untrustworthy person. The next day I was officially sacked for some made up reason. At 10:30 that morning I was told to leave. That was day 11 of my employment at that company.
Since then I have largely just ‘existed’. I survive on government handouts that do not support me in any way at all. I have no family. My family chose to believe the woman who framed me and kind of turned their backs on me when they thought I was a thief – although they never stopped talking to me. My sister also informed my close school friends about my alleged thieving and obviously I now have not one close friend left. No family and no friends to ask for help from.
A few years ago I found out that I was abused as a child (and since…). When I attempted to alert my brother and sisters about our dire situation, they again turned their backs on me
– and I don’t think that at this point in our relationship there will ever be a reconciliation.
I have about £10,000 of accumulated debts that I am struggling to pay off at £1.00 per calendar month. I know that I will not be able to pay them all off right from the jump but anything that anyone can donate to my Paypal will be grately received.
Thanks in advance