Howdy Reader and kind persons that want to help! PLEASE read this entirety as my asking for help has a timeline and not so simple to ask.
I am a hairstylist and very talented. I am also gay and a vegetarian/vegan that just cant want he respect of my family. It causes me pain and I suffer from PTSD from a very narcissistic father whom to this day still abuses my mother and I can tell is rubbing off in his other kids and grandkids. Its very hard to NOT be the center of any joke whether about me being gay, vegan, or even racist jokes and if they only knew im writing begging for money I dont want to know what they could say about me then….that terrifies me.
So please hear me out…im not the best at writing or ‘begging’ for help but I really am in a financial crisis and could use some urgent help to get me out of my stress.
So in 2020 After the pandemic “opened up” I jumped into my own business working for myself for the first time as an independent hairstylist in a mini salon with a friend. I have been working hair since 2010 and gave the indolence a shot for the first time. My mini salon was safe and 1-on-1 . Well, that same year I also was in 2 car accidents and the first of which totaled my car as well as suffering body injuries that affect me every day and my stamina to work as much as I used to. Well I realized somewhere I needed to do something that would bring in more income, so I learned a new skill in hair extension training! Sure I had to borrow $1000 to take the training but I knew the price tags of the service could get me out of debt. Well, one month later this is not January of 2022 My mini salon got crashed into! This threw me out of that business and had to rebuild and relocate my salon .
Fast Forward to December of last year I found a Hair Coach to help propel my business because I just cannot get myself out of debt .That was a very expensive endeavor that literally cost me $6000 by 6 monthly payments . Mind you I live in Austin texas, I live alone and am single. I dont go out anymore because I can no longer afford literally anything after paying my apartment rent and my salon rent and now car payment from those stupid car accidents. . I have lost all of my friends because if my body was hurting or If I couldn’t afford the things it takes to “have fun” then people got tired of me and Im not exaggerated when I say I have literally lost all of my friends because of my injuries and inability to financially survive. It was a wake up call to know that I was friends with so many ego centric people but they say when you grow up in a chaotic household you subconsciously attract that in people….
Now lets go to the beginning of this year… im working on my business, Im trusting the universe that my investments into having a business coach will be worth it because my family and especially dad doesn’t support any of this because it wasn’t his idea and that im not glorifying his efforts which dont include my input about my future. Well get this amazing part, I get invited to join a team of stylist to work New York Fashion week! This opportunity is the reason im writing this post because Im so afraid of losing this opportunity! I got accepted and because this opportunity is completely self funded, I paid a non refundable ticket price of a $1000.
My trip is in September and less than 8 weeks ago I dont have any savings after all my efforts in trying to turn my business around and keep me afloat. My credit cards are almost maxed out and between then I dont even have enough resource to pay for my hotel! I will be staying for 7 days that will be approximately $1800 for my stay. I still need to buy products to use and the one thing that is driving me insane is what the heck am I going to wear . But im trying to stay humble as I dont wear designer anything and only shop at second hand stores . Im graced with will and talent to sew so I can tailor my clothes a little but it would be so amazing to know someone may be an angel to me and cant help me out.
Being bullied all of my life and most recent years realizing how much I have survived through I find it hard to ask for help and often put myself aside in showing who I am fighting out loud for what I believe in. But I believe in myself and manifesting the world because there is so much abundance and I hope this echoes back. I love making people feel amazing about their appearance because I know they make others feel good when they feel they look confident. The reason I do hair extensions is because I suffer from hairless myself and wear a hair piece. It looks so crazy right now too because I cant afford another one and am pushing it as far as I can til September before forking out $200 to buy another hair unit for myself. The struggle is real and its stressing me out that I should forfeit the opportunity.
Right now I am Drowning in almost $13k in debt and I owe my dad $1500 and am a month late to paying him back. I know my trip will cost me probably $2500 if im humble and making my own breakfast but I want to enjoy it!
My goal is to try to find as much help and hustle in every which way I Can! Where I live it is 100 degrees and will be for the next two months so I know it will slow my business down and so afraid of a low momentum. Right now I am going to keep posting on my social medias to try to get more work on my books. If I could afford car insurance again I would absolutely put effort into trying to make money but the roads scare me and thankful in a way I dont right now.
Please find it in your heart to help someone who is a light for others because I know how awful it feels like to be bullied, and not feel heard or worthy. I am worthy .
Thank you for reading I hope you can be generous in helping fund a dream.
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