Hey everyone, I’d like to share my dream future with you and hopefully raise money to help accelerate this.
I’m a twenty seven year old man who’s besotted with my Girlfriend, and she is with me. It’s been a whole beautiful year since we met and now I’ve got to get serious as I feel ready to start a family, she’s five years younger, from an Asian ethnic background so certain things are expected before we can do so like marriage and a mortgage at the very least for example.
Here’s my problem, I need to fund this and i’m clearly incapable of doing so right now, something I’m definitely not proud of! I came out of a seven year relationship in 2018 as she wasn’t the one for me but I literally stuck around so long because I never wanted to break her heart. I started getting depressed from the act I was living, I lived with her for three years and felt very little to nothing! I thought our own space would help me connect but the was no spark or connection and we started arguing about the tiniest of things so eventually I grew some cojones and stopped wasting both our time.
She moved out and took a piece of me with her as it was a long time. So I started working on my self esteem and confidence for a while and things was fine I had no intentions of finding a woman as I had a vague plan in my mind to save and get driving ect. Life doesn’t always go to plan I guess.
I just lost my job due to agency staff being cut short in the factory the start of 2019 literally just after Xmas I looked for a job everywhere!! I was getting odd days furniture removal or picking and packers for minimum wage but it never covered my rent let alone other bills. I had a couple thousand saved but as the months went by it just ate my money so I went into overdraft of £5000 and used it all on bills still jobless that clearly was a silly thing to do. On my last tether i had to put my moving out notice in and move back to my moms due to the debt and not having work.
I felt hopeless I was so prideful I never asked anyone for help while being out of work and kept it quiet so nobody worried about me, I’m not religious but I prayed to some form of higher power to send me something clearly I was praying for a job opportunity or money of some kind I think, But she came along that same night, and as unrealistic as that is it’s the gospel truth. My baby brother said let’s go out ill pay for you that night bless him he knows I’m usually good for it and then we met in a club through a mutual friend. I’d never seen her before and she never knew I existed even though she knew my brother from college. We never really spoke to start with as I had alot on my mind and I wasn’t looking for anyone for any reason but she was standing alone for what felt like the longest time and so I went and spoke to her properly and we just got lost in each other! She lives in another city so every weekend we spend all our time together and due to coronavirus I haven’t seen her in 52 days 4 hours and 46 minutes as I’m writing this she jumped on her Monday morning train to go back home. We obviously speak everyday it doesn’t do my soul any justice though.
Shes an apprentice so she doesn’t earn much her family ain’t rich either i’m back in work and I finally got a contracted job the end of March and should start paying my bills and overdraft arrears off and hopefully it’ll all be sorted by the end of the year so I can put every penny towards a wedding and house deposit. I live back with my mom who’s on disability living allowance as she’s got lung,chest and bone problems I pay bed and board and rent so I haven’t been able to clear much off yet, slowly but surely though.
Anyway that’s my conundrum as it stands the is so much I could say but it’s already long winded and uncomfortable for me to do this I just want to fast track something I know with all my heart will happen in the future maybe you can help me in that endeavour. If you have read this then thank you for your time :)