When I started my college life, I thought I was set, and this was the perfect school. When I continued my education, I saw that this was starting to lose what I wanted in life. What I wanted to do. Time change, I change to a point where I go into darkness. My parents divorced and I had to comfort my mom. Learning that my dad decides to go with a more unstable woman is what I will never get in my life. But my mom who tried her hardest got hurt the most out of it. She loved my dad for 20+ years and she still loves him now since he is my dad. But his GF is what I am scared for. She does things I don’t like, and she was the one who broke not only my family but hers as well. She has two kids one is mentally impaired while the other is spoiled to shit. There was a time where I thought I knew my dad, but it turns out I didn’t know him at all. I lost my trust and it is still taking me time to trust him again all these years later. But the one thing I do appreciate is my mom she has been there for me when I was in the dark. If she wasn’t there I wouldn’t be here. I want to give her something for helping me out when I was in a dark place. Where I thought the only way out was to end it all and go onto the next life. Life can be hard, but I want my mom to have something nice in this life. I do want to take her on a nice trip to Hawaii or get her something nice like a new desk, better tools for her woodworking. Something to tell her that she means the world to me. I want to thank her for getting me out of that dark place to continue my life and struggle more. She means a lot to me and I want to treat her better than I can with what I am doing. She is the best mother any man could have I want to give her something. Anything helps and would be appreciated. If she didn’t talk to me about my mindset I would not be here. I really want to give her something for helping me.