Hello, my name is Abigail.
I’ve never done anything like this before, so it’s hard for me to know where to start.
The whole world is struggling right now, and I know I’m just a 26 year old girl who makes very little impact on it. I don’t know many people at all. My whole life I’ve been a recluse, tucked away from everything else, other people. I have no where else to turn.
My 26 years have been strange, but happy up until this last year. My mom and I were always poor, but we got by through the struggles and we’ve always had eachother. My dad died when I was only 4. And this last year, I lost my everything when my mom suddenly passed away from a heart attack, and stroke that followed.
She was always so strong. I had never imagined that I’d lose her in the blink of an eye. I know I’m far from the only person who has undergone such an intense sorrow, and far from the only one carrying the weight of loss. I’m trying to be strong for her, and do my best- I know it’s what she would want me to do.
But it’s easier said than done.. these months I’m ashamed to say I’ve struggled hard with the will to keep going. To keep pushing. I feel so lost without her, a tiny speck in a giant, overwhelming world.
The changes of life had been a whirlwind. I didn’t even know how to drive, had never been behind a wheel, and live out in the country where nothing is within walking distance. She hadn’t wanted me to get a job, so I never did. I’d honestly never dreamed of a life without her. I never had one dream or aspiration that didn’t include her. I know it will sound weird to others but, we were so close that we never even left the house without eachother. Now that she’s gone I’m just.. lost. It feels like I’m stripped bare of everything.
After the first couple of months, I’d learned how to drive. I got my license shortly after, and actually managed to get a job not long after that. I liked working, it was a lot to take in but it was going well. But the problem that’s led to me asking here for the help of kind strangers came about when I got into a car accident, which totaled my car and has left me stranded. It had been raining, the roads were slick, it was dark and my headlights were dim as it was. I don’t even know how I lost control of the car. The tires started sliding, and suddenly it was flipping over twice, ultimately leaving me shaking in the ditch on the road back home.
It’s nothing short of a miracle that I’m okay. I believe that with all of my heart that my angel was with me. The top of the car was crushed in around me. If anything had hit even a little different, I wouldn’t even be sitting here typing this.
I’m thankful God gave me a chance to keep going. I am still lost but, now I know more than ever how much I want to live. I want to get my life together. With no transportation I lost my job, but I am eager to find another.
I just desperately need help to get another car so that I can do that. Something to get me back on my feet. I have very little cash saved after keeping up with bills, it’s not enough to afford one. I’m praying for help of $3000, but anything that can be spared will help tremendously. I know it’s a lot, and I’m so sorry that I’ve ended up in this predicament. I just have nowhere else to turn. But please, if you’re reading this, if you have the means and are able, I’ll be eternally grateful and I will never forget the kindness shown to me. And if you don’t have the means, then I ask for your prayers to get through this.
Thank you for taking the time to read this, and God bless you all.