Hello there and thank you for reading my appeal,
My name is Helen and I am a thirty-two-year-old UK-based personal blogger in need of a little bit of help. By day, I run a blog which focuses on the acceptance of and support for disabled people within the kink community, as a disabled, kinky person myself. I have been a member of the kink community for almost fifteen years and wanted to do something to help other people, without resolving to erotic writing or pornography. After the overwhelming success of Fifty Shades Of Grey, I realised how many young (and older!) people and how many disabled people might want someone to talk to about their thoughts and desires that stemmed from this book, but who also wouldn’t know where else to turn, just as I had experienced many years before. I wanted to create a peer-based space to show how normal we are and to focus on the parts of these relationships that aren’t centred around the bedroom, as well as to looking at how anyone can live the life they may want to live, all with a little patience, creativity and communication. I threw open the doors and welcomed people to read snippets of my own thoughts and life, as well as talking about safety, reviews and more. My blog has been resourceful for other people and even landed me the opportunity to write for other media platforms and blogs. Having finally found what works for me, I give my blog everything that I have got to offer. For me, my blog is the job that I wouldn’t have otherwise had, because it is so darn hard to find work when you live with physical disabilities and a fluctuating pain condition!
I am married and my husband does work. However, he earns just slightly above the national minimum wage and so we receive no support from the government with paying our rent, tax or medical bills. We cook all of our own meals and do not engage in unhealthy habits. We manage to scrape by most months and typically spend what little extra we have on replacing broken items or home improvements. Even then, the improvements we make are always kept modest and sensible. We don’t have any maxxed-out credit cards as we both know how dangerous credit cards can be financially. We don’t have children to look after or a car to run either. For us, a car would be a luxury item.
After lockdown ended, I admit, I’ve kind of been going a little bit crazy. The garden is overrun with weeds and I’ve been busy tidying it up and making it nice so that we have somewhere to socialise outdoors. Our kettle also kept tripping the fuse and our desk fan sounded like a propeller plane taking off, so both of those had to be replaced. As I mentioned, it’s never about expense for us, it’s all about practicality. Normally I would budget better than this but I’ve been trying to get a lot done in such a short space of time and so I accidentally overspent a little on my finances.
Last week, my WordPress plan was due to expire and I had to throw most of my money at making sure my site stayed available to the people who use it. With what little money that I had left to treat myself (and after buying the kettle, the fan and four bags of wood chippings for the garden!), I decided to buy myself some more Blue Velvet Shrimps for my bedroom aquarium (first image), as well as renovating my lounge aquarium with new gravel and ornaments. Whilst my blog is now running perfectly and the kettle no longer powers down the flat, all twelve of my new shrimp are dead, and all that remains in the tank are the two shrimp that I had to begin with. I’ve run three water changes with drip acclimatisation each time, but sadly that didn’t save the majority. The lounge aquarium (second image) doesn’t look how I hoped it would, either. Instead of looking interesting and exciting, it looks dark, drab and depressing. I’d like to recreate my bedroom aquarium somewhat into this tank so that it compliments my east-facing lounge. Sadly, I no longer have the funds to fix either of these issues for at least another three weeks and hence, I am here on Begging Money. On average, I spend £532.80 per year on running my blog and I typically ask for nothing in return. I am not asking you to give me something for nothing, I am asking you to help me out of this situation as I continue to spend my time and money, hopefully helping other people. I believe in humility and I would never ask for things that I consider to be unreasonable. However, I also believe in being honest about our struggles and I believe that it’s okay to ask for help sometimes. My late father always said “don’t ask, don’t get. Don’t ask, don’t want”. Even if it doesn’t fill me with pride to be asking for money, I have to be honest about the situation that I am in and hope that somewhere, some kind, empathetic individuals may answer my plea.
The bedroom tank matters to me because I like to watch the shrimp swim while I try to sleep at night. After losing my sixty-year-old father to plasma cell leukemia in March 2019, I often experience episodes of insomnia and grief and watching the shrimp helps me relax my mind enough to finally get to sleep. The lounge tank also matters because the lounge is the atrium of my home. As I finally get to socialise with my friends and family indoors and outdoors after lockdown, the last thing I want them to see is the sad-looking fish tank in my living room. I don’t have any plans for a few weeks so I’d like to be able to sort both tanks out before then and to be able to act as though this disaster hadn’t happened. Of course it has, but I’d love for my story of disaster to be one that ends in hope, all thanks to humanity and the kindness of human spirit.
On top of this scenario, I am only a week away from a small £30 overdraft on some bills. I have already had my home security provider threaten to cut me off last week because they couldn’t process the billing, I can’t afford to risk that happening again. I had an attempted home invasion in December 2019 at this address so for me, a fully-working home security system is paramount. Right now, even £30 alone would be enough to save me from the sticky situation that I have gotten myself into, anything else towards fixing up my tanks would be a bonus.
I’ve set my target amount at £200 as I don’t like or plan to go for expense, as I mentioned before. I can add to my lounge aquarium as time goes on, what matters to me right now getting some more shrimp (most likely from a different supplier!) and lightening my lounge aquarium back up. Perfection is not important to me, all that matters to me for now is to have something at a basic level that I can work from.
I thank you sincerely for considering supporting me l and I wish you a pleasant life.
With warm regards,
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