Hello! First of all I’d like to thank You for opening my letter. My request probably isn’t as important than many others in this website but it is important for my peace of mind.
Let’s go back to the beginning of 2017. My first relationship that lasted for 4 years, ended. I didn’t have normal place to sleep. I had to sleep on the floor of my mother’s kitchen or share a room with my aunt and grandma, who has parkinson’s disease. All the stress from the break-up and seeing close my grannys troubles and me having no place to be by myself (I have always been introvert) drived me insane, I once even thought of a suicide but decided that everything can only get better. But meanwhile I didn’t have job and took loans. Later took loans to pay previous loans and so on. Summer of 2018, although I was still broken inside and not looking for anyone, my now boyfriend, knew from the first time he saw me, that I am the one for him (and he was single for 10 years after a rough break-up). I really got an ideal man. But my loans grew even though I got a job. Problem is that when I need help, I try to get by myself, I don’t ask for help (but now I don’t know what else to do) and so I get my problems even bigger. For now, my loans have grown to about 10 000€. My boyfriend wants a family with me, he has two dreams, to build a house and have a baby. Because of my loans we can’t get a loan from the bank to build our house and so we pay for rent of our apartment (bank loan would be same amount every month). My bank account has to be clear from debts for 6 months before they give us money for our house. Giving that I just lost my job in November (clothes shop closed its doors) and my previous salary 700€ (from where I pay 200€ my part of the rent and 350€ for my loans) I have no hope for paying those loans fully over 5 years. But I want my boyfriend who is 35 ( I get 25 in the end of December) to get his dream house before he gets 40. We also have tried for a baby over a year now and we have no success. Doctors said that all tests are okey. So I am pretty sure that the stress because of the money problems is preventing me to get pregnant. And now is Christmas time and although it is snowing and we have Christmas tree, there is no peave in my heart because I have to worry where I get the money to pay everything next month and give presents this Christmas, because my family is worth it. So please, if you have the opportunity then every donation you gives me a bit more peace. You have no idea what that would mean to me to start my year 25 with slightly less worry… Thank you and Merry Christmas!