Hey everyone, I gotta start by saying you’ve gotta be one kind person to even be reading this lol. Anyway, I’m going to be as honest as I possibly can. I feel bad even posting this, but I guess it can’t hurt to ask. I messed up pretty bad. I dropped out of school to go be with the “love of my life” (what a fucking joke) and when he rejected me, I fell into the wrong crowd and started using prescription drugs. It wasn’t very long before I found myself using harder drugs and trying to find more elusive ways to avoid working. I met a guy, pretty awesome, if I do say so myself, and he convinced me to get help. I spent three months in rehab and three more months in a sober living facility and proud to say I’m coming up on nonentity months clean. However, in all that mess, I ruined my credit, a few of my teeth are fucked up and it really messes with my confidence. I used to have such a pretty smile and now I’m scared to laugh out loud. I totaled a car, and pawned anything of value. I’m not really sure what I’m even asking for to be completely honest, but I just need a little help getting back to normal. I just took a job with a big car manufacturing company. I’ve never worked in a plant before. It’s always been restaurants for me. I’m a bit nervous to even start, but I know normal people get paychecks and balance their money and save and set goals and achieve those goals. So, I’m starting to do that myself. It’s only $12/hr, but it’s a decent start I think.
Here are the goals I’ve set so far:
- Acquire Dental Insurance and fix the teeth that bother me the most
- Pay off at least three of the loans I’ve taken out.
- Buy a decent camera and microphone (I’ve always wanted to start a YouTube channel just as a hobby and anything that keeps me busy is a good thing at this point lol)
- Save $900 and my parents will help me buy a car to get back and forth to work with.
- Put back at least $200 every month until it’s $5,000 (emergency funds)
- Pay back the three medical bills I owe from when I didn’t have insurance and start to rebuild my credit.
There are of course other things I want, I’d like to get my PlayStation back and pay back a few friends that were kind enough to loan me money that I wasted on drugs, but I would like to achieve the bulleted goals first. I know it can all be done and I should just be patient, but any help would be so greatly appreciated and one day I want to pay it forward if I get any help. I mean truly embarrassed to even post this and must have deleted it at least four times, but idk. Maybe there’s someone out there who can help or relates to the struggle. Hell, I’d even be happy with a nice job offer. If you read this far, I just want to thank you so much for even taking out the time. I really and truly appreciate it. Thanks again. Love and blue skies 😘