Well i never ever thought i would turn to this in my lifetime. I am at the stage right now where i am about to end it all.
Last year i lost everything, my wife, my house, my car, everything that i had good in my life. My wife was diagnosed with cancer earlier in the year and it was diagnosed too late. They tried chemotherapy to no avail. I quit my job as a head chef at a pretty high class restaurant to look after her and spend the time she had left together, making memories, doing everything in my power to make sure she was treated like a princess and happy. It killed me knowing the outcome of it all and seeing her health decline, knowing there was nothing i could do to take this horrible disease away!! I just had to put on a brave face and smile. She did the exact same, but i could see in her eyes she was so scared.
In her final days my daughter Olivia and i would visit for hours on end just reminiscing about all the amazing times we had and what the future holds for Olivia as got engaged November 27th 2018, so she talked about her wedding and what she had planned for it and who she was inviting. It was nice to see her still laughing and smiling.
But before we knew it she was gone. So quickly.
All my savings went to funeral costs, i had to sell the house and car to pay off all of our debts, so i now rent a one bedroom flat in the town. I cant get a job due to coronavirus. I feel like my life has just been blown to pieces and i have no way of getting back on track whatsoever.
My daughters wedding is in 9 months time, and i have no way on earth of getting money to pay for it. I cant afford to keep myself going nevermind a wedding!! I feel totally ashamed of myself for being in this situation. My wife would never in a million years thought i would end up like this.
The only thing that matters to me more than anything is walking my daughter down the isle and bringing happiness to us both after this horrible horrible time. It would truly be a special occasion and would mean the absolute world to her!.
If any of you amazing people can relate to me, and find it in your hearts to help me make my daughters dream come true, i will be eternally greatful and in your debt for the rest of my life.
I feel so ashamed of myself for doing this. But i know that there are truly special people in this world.
I reall dont know how to thank anyone that helps me. But if i can in the future i will repay you somehow!!!
I am looking to try and raise £15-£20,000.
If anyone can find it in their hearts to help me fulfill this dream of mine my paypal is
I am eternally thankful
God bless you all