I must say first of all that I’m not too happy about my birthday coming up because I feel I’m getting older & haven’t done anything with my life..I especially feel the last 4 years my life has been on pause & I haven’t grown.I never thought I’d be doing this & I was just looking online to see if there even was an option like this to open up a little about what I’m going through & just see if there is any help because at this point I’ve come to god knows this isn’t easy for me to share….
One of the biggest reasons for this feeling like my life’s been on pause is mainly because I haven’t been able to take care of something that’s been holding me back for the past 4 years now. I needed $5k to get this certain thing done (erased & taken cared of) but never seemed to come up with enough founds to do so, I honestly don’t want to go into details with exactly what it is because it’s something that will highly be judged..it’s been weighing me down & hovering over my back for years. Every time I had A little bit saved up to build on to make the aMount I need..wether it be Christmas/ holiday comes around & my heart is soo kind I go buying gifts etc for people from the little I would save up & said I wouldn’t touch..so it’s like I never got anything to add up.
I’ve been so mad at myself for not getting this situation taken cared of way back like 4 years ago but I took to long to ever get enough saved, which I noticed it’s been a big thing that has been dragging me down, & I feel like I can’t move on with my life..if I’m able to get any help from anyone would really help..I know there are people in worst conditions and needs than me at least I have a roof over my head..this is also why I’m saying whatever Little would be appreciated.
Getting this money would be my birthday wish which will be September 8th, I’ve been living in a messy, uncomfortable situation & having this money to help me get what I need fixed & out of my way….will also help me to get out of my living situation & move on without a big baggage over my shoulders…I’m willing to tell someone who I feel I can trust more of my situation but these days I don’t know who to trust so telling every detail online to strangers are even harder for me when I don’t even trust people I know in person.
I want to be free again, spread my wings that’s been cut..grow it back & fly again Without any worries or reminder of this one thing that’s been weighing me down heavily. I’ve wasted 4 years of my youth that I’ll never get back if only I can get some help & it will allow me to make a big move for my 26th year; could make up for the time lost. It will also allow me to renew my passport & work on getting my drivers license which has been my goal that’s been on hold not just be able to leave the uncomfortable living situation. As soon as I’m able to raise enough to fix that 1 thing that’s been needing to be worked on/fixed, everything else will be smoother for me.