Hi. My name is Lee. I am 31 from Scotland and I need your help.
Adulthood has been a challenging experience for me. Having been left without parents from the age of 17, my mum died of alcohol abuse, and the other, just cruel and alone somewhere. I found myself with no life skills, career prospects or confidence in anything I done. This sticks with me to this day.
I grabbed the first job I could as suddenly I had a lot of bills to pay. It was with Tesco, in a call centre.
Things were ok to start with as I had my sister. This lasted a year or so before she moved out to have her own family. And since then, I have tried to stay in the home I grew up on my own. I guess to keep an attachment to the things i missed from my past. So from then until losing my job this year, Ive had enough money for my bills without any left, to live a life.
It turns out that staying here in the house i grew up in doesnt remind me of the things i missed. Only the torment of things that happened here. My mind would go wild with the quiet and after spending the days in a job i hated, and my nights in a house that broke so many others, I broke too.
I couldn’t focus at work, or even speaking to a friend. I would disappear in to my own thoughts of gloom and doom. My finances were getting out of hand. Heard of payday loans? They all know who I am.
I took some time off work on the advice of my Dr as the environment wasn’t healthy anď the support I needed was offered but never given. This was in September 2017.
I couldn’t find my way, and in February this year I was dismissed for being unfit to work.
Im now bankrupt, unemployed and no better off than before I had payday loans pouring out my ears. My days start with hoping I can just sleep all day. At night i dont want to sleep through dread of the next day to come.
Now I ask for your help.
I want to work and i want to have a life. Today I have no food. Had to borrow for electricity. I have to wear the same clothes daily and i have to hand wash them too. I ask that this community help with donations to help me move house, get myself some appliances, clothes and food in the hope that this massive change to my life will help me get over my past.