Thank you for reading! We have 4 girls and it’s my hearts desire to be able to homeschool them, to be with them as much as possible while they’re young. Someday, they won’t want or need me around. THIS is the time to spend with them. Teach them, watch them learn and grow. Live and laugh with them. I don’t want to look back with regret on all the time I missed out on with them. I talk to so many older people whose eyes are vivid with regret as they tell me to squeeze every moment out of this time. I’m crying writing this. Some don’t get it. They “mom” better when they get to leave and have their space. I NEED to be with them because I KNOW it’s coming to an end soon. I know my job is to prep them for the world and finally let them soar but right now, we’re not there yet.
We have considered options – moving, but there isn’t enough money (there’s never enough) in our home to put us in a better financial situation even if we move half way across the continent. Me working afternoons into the early morning but I still miss out on putting them to bed, dinner, evenings with the whole family together. I’ve tried wood working, writing, online…….nothing pays what we need to make my greedy wishes a reality.
I write lyrics – which mean nothing without music that I can’t afford to pay someone to do for me to get them out to the world. I write poetry – not sure anyone even cares for poetry anymore. I paint. All things creative…..all things that place me in the “starving artists” category. I love to create and it makes a little income but not enough.
With the economy the way it is – which I know everyone is suffering from – we need more income. In order to provide and thrive with them and BE with them.
I am aware this isn’t a tragic emergency like some are suffering from. But it is a burden that’s weighing down my heart and soul. They are my everything and I just need that extra to make my dream of being with them a reality.
I am praying this plays on your heart strings. Perhaps you long for the same thing or regret all the time that is now lost and understand where I’m at. God’s given me these sweet blessings. I know there is a plan. I just haven’t a clue what it is so I thought I’d reach out here. Thank you again for reading. xo Sarah