let me start off by introducing myself.. My name is Matthew. I’m not totally sure I believe this is real but at this point I’ve exhausted all my options so what the hey life can’t get any worse unfortunately!
Long story short I was a miracle baby my parents are in their 80s.. however my dad passed when I was only 7, life was off to the hardest start possible before I even could know who I was.. My mom made sure to always provide for me and I was her number one priority always and I’m so greatful for her and don’t know what I’d do without her and my step dad as well who entered my life at around 13. I went to catholic school my whole life and played any sport I could to not deal with the loss of my father. I had been so good at baseball I attempted to go pro and lo and behold I got into a car accident right after I had just been drafted to a minor league team . Shattered my knee cap and that was it. Now I’m 18 with basically any dream I had or good thing in my life ripped from me.. and it hasn’t stopped since .. I’m not just some guy looking to get over. I’m actually to nice which as we all know the saying nice guys finish last . Well I’m living proof.. but I never give up … I grew up in Staten Island New York and jobs are few and far between that pay and liveable salary so I decided there was nothing keeping me here .. I moved to New Jersey with my parents and had went to a trade school for automotive.. I graduated and weirdly got a job as an electrical apprentice.. and I loved it but it never materialized into anything. I then started which til this day my career in solar installation.. for trinity solar I then thought finally my life is going to change I’ll be able to buy a house . Not be embarassed to go on dates cause I’ll be making good money being I was hired with Tesla as a solar installer…and then Covid hits… I’ve had it four times I’m over it I cannot fathom that word specially being it took my last two grandparents from me.. and might’ve done some serious damage to my lungs as well because finally getting a new job bumping around solar company to company since most are not well organized and so badly over worked and barely compensated it’s truly taking a toll on my body both mentally and physically.. I’m at the point where I want to give up but I just can’t.. and trust me there is so much more Ive left out because I don’t want this to be A sob story or poor me kinda thing. As it is I feel stupid enuff writing this thing . But to whoever gets it I will forever be greatful to you and indebted if you would help me get my own business started.. Even my car situation is excuse me .. fckd … I had a car I was ready to trade in cause obviously I cannot work without one and my transmission goes .. 8 grand out of pocket that I had to get a loan for just for the car to get repossesed two days after it was fixed .. because I couldn’t afford both the loan and my payments .. it’s just one thing after another and I’m so so sick of it. I’m a great person I’ve always been the nicest authentic old school mannered guy in the world no matter what’s been thrown at me.. But I just don’t know what to do anymore .. I’m 35 years old and I obviously cannot do solar forever cause number one it doesn’t pay enuff to do anything but make ends meet and 2 COVID defaniitley affected me because majority of the time at work I either have to leave early or call out because I am physically drained .. I have very bad problem breathing after about 4 hours outside on the roof that leads into fatigue sweating and my head burning inside like it’s being cooked.. so basically I’m at a point where I don’t know what my next move could possibly be without some guidance or someone to help me.. I know basically all aspects of construction as far as solar . Electrical. Roofing.. and if I don’t I learn it extremely fast.. and I know with the right funding and my crew of guys I would put together I could 100% make a successful buisness .. and again I’m putting my tail between my legs and writing this in hopes of the best but I’m not expecting anything to mastisize from it knowing the scams and what not on here.. but thank you for your time if you read this I truly appreciate it… and yeah that’s about all I got .. you would truly change my life forever and not to mention the depression I also try to hide due to all of this.. thank you very much for your time and I pray and hope to hear from someone.. if not Thank you for reading anyway and god bless..
sincerely, your friend Matt