I’m a 23 year old guy from Sweden
I had bad social anxiety for as long as i can remember. I am pretty lonely but i handle it pretty well and i stay focused on my hobby which is music production.
Had some sort of sleeping disorder since my teens, which basically means i am awake for 2 days straight and i fall asleep from exhaustion. That’s my normal routine.
The past 1.5-2 years i’ve had lots of stomach problems and i’ve been to the emergency room many times. Couldn’t work. I had to move in with my dad again. He puts food on the table and i have a bed to sleep in. I am too ashamed to ask him for more. He’s a wonderful person and he would help me if i asked, but i just don’t have the guts to ask him for money when i know his economy isn’t good. I just can’t..
Anyway.. I have pretty much isolated myself for all of this time and my mental health has declined by alot. As a result of all of this, i feel unable to work. I just instantly get really fatigued when i try.
I haven’t gotten a haircut in a long time. I haven’t been able to buy clothes in years either, and my self esteem is really horrible as a result. If i’m not able to take care of myself, i cant feel confident in myself. Basically, i’m a homeless guy occupying a room in my dads house(though my stomach hasnt ever had to be empty.. So i guess it’s not that bad)… But i haven’t owned a penny in a long time.
I really miss the small things in life. Like sometimes being able to buy a soda when the craving comes. Being able to go out with buddies and take a drink. Have some spontaneous fun. I’m in my 20s. Your teenage years and 20s should be your golden years. I really don’t want to miss out on my youth..
I guess this is why i’m asking for donations. When i’m as comfortable as possible in myself, and i have those basic life needs fulfilled. Haircut. Clothes. Etc.. At that point i believe i will progress much more on improving my mental health. If i forced myself to get a job right now and work, it would take way longer. I believe i need to work on my mental health first.
I didn’t want to beg, but for some reason the site name “beggingmoney” made it much easier, haha.