Hello!
My name is Sophia and I honestly don’t have much to say about myself. Sometimes I do digital art when I feel like it, and sometimes I watch anime or Twitch. Always have admired the Japanese culture! Would love to live in Japan one day… Anyways, let’s move on to the point.
First, I want to talk about what I’ve been through. It’s not much, but I’ve hated myself since I was little. I’ve always thought it’s best for me to not exist anymore, harmed myself in every possible way. Pretty much what most people endure these days. Genuinely, I haven’t been on any medications, except anti-anxiety pills. And never got diagnosed with anything, because I never told anyone. Keeping it to myself made everything quite worse. I started to lose interest in everything that made me happy. You might ask: why didn’t you find a psychologist? Just like I was too numb to get out of my bed or do my homework, I was exactly too numb to seek help.
Secondly, I would like to tell you how did I get the idea to start changing my perspective of the world. I met some people online and they were something. They had something in themselves that made me think if I really want to keep hurting myself till the day I die. I did enjoy spending time with them. The new friends made me realise the life can be bright, it’s about what’s in your head, how you look at it. Hence there was like a little light reborn in me, but I’m still not sure about it, keep overshadowing it.
And finally, the reason I’m here is I looked deeper into myself, searched for what truly makes me happy. One of the things that I found made me happy is making others happy. Second was obviously my dearest friends. And another one is art. I realised I want to start making money by doing art. But I have zero motivation, since my self-hate isn’t gone and I don’t feel like it’s going anywhere. I’m still young and I want to be happy, I want to feel good about myself. I’m a bit ashamed, that I’m writing on this site hoping somebody would help me become a little more financially stable. But for the start I’m really trying to get help anonymously.
To sum up, let’s not hide it – money does make you feel better, you can go buy some yummy ice cream or a big donut with chocolate. And I also realised money always made me feel better, have fun. I want to start earning it and enjoy earning it. I will NEVER sell myself or my body for money. I would love to open a Japanese styled cute apparel store, sell my art or even start streaming on platform Twitch. But I do not have courage and I still feel emotionally weak. There’s still many big sad thoughts in my head how it’s not even worth a try.
I will use money to: 1. Get professional help, 2. Advertise my art, 3. Save up for future business.
You don’t have to send me money, just thank you for spending some of your time reading this. But if you do want to support me you can send an euro or two to https://paypal.me/frogityfrog?locale.x=en_US or support my art on www.fiverr.com/frogityfrog
Have a gooooood day!!!!
P.S. I’ve attached a sticker I drew, that represents me.