Hello, I am thankful to have your attention. Even if you do not donate, thank you for your time. I’ll give a quick run down for those that don’t wish to read my story fully, and then tell the story in full detail.
Quick rundown: I have mental disabilities, I came from a dysfunctional family, was never taught how to be an adult, ended up homeless, started going to college and was living off my financial aid, I was then placed on academic suspension and lost my apartment despite trying to save it by working at McDonalds, needed up living with my Aunt who tormented me, I was trained to be a CNA, injured myself while working as a CNA, ended up homeless once more, I now live with my boyfriend but we’re both completely trapped in his parents home as we are very isolated and both of us are unable to drive.
Goals: I want to move IN town with my boyfriend so we can be independent, ie go shopping on our own, get a job or go back to school (maybe both), and take care of bills…
Okay. If you want to know more, I’ll better explain now.
I have mental disabilities that have made my life difficult. Growing up, my family had their own business, so I dropped out of school to dedicate myself to their business. I foolishly believed that we would always have our business and didn’t bother with an education, or even thought about the possibility of other careers. My family unfortunately became addicted to drugs, and we fell apart very fast. We lost our business, our home, all our nice things. We starved. We became homeless. When we got back on our feet, that’s when my mental issues worsened. I developed a panic disorder that was debilitating, and caused me anguish for the next three years before I finally got the help I desperately needed. I eventually found the strength to start up my education again in my late twenties. I earned my GED, went to college, and with my financial aid I got myself a little apartment. For the first time in my life I felt free and comfortable in my own skin. I even got healthier, working out and eating healthier! School was amazing, and I did pretty well at it. Until all I had left was math… at first, I was decent at it. But of course, it get harder, I just couldn’t understand it, and no matter how much I studied, I didn’t get it and ultimately failed two quarters in a row, placing me in academic suspension. Since I lived off my financial aid, I knew this was really bad. I did everything I could to keep my apartment, keep food in the fridge, and keep the lights on, but I completely failed at it. Despite trying to work at McDonalds, my anxiety got me in trouble and I wasn’t given anymore hours. I was forced to move in with my aunt, who made me hate myself even more. While living with her, I attempted to kill myself twice. I was so miserable, and I felt so unloved.
Things turned around a little when I decided to train to be a CNA (Certified Nursing Assistant). At first, I did okay at it. But after three months of work, I injured myself assisting in lifting a resident. My employers and co-workers proceeded to treat me like garbage while I was on light duty, until I quit. I ended up homeless because I couldn’t stand living with my aunt anymore. Thankfully, I met the love of my life and I moved in with him and his parents almost two years ago.
As much as I love his family, I can’t stand living so isolated. I am stuck on a hill ten miles out of town, can’t go on long walks because of wild life, I don’t drive so I can’t go into town to do my own grocery shopping, and I can’t rely on his parent to drive me into town for events or work (even if I offer to pay for gas), because they complain if we want to leave. If there were a bus system, we would take it, but there isn’t (and no, there’s no Uber or Lyft service in our area).
I would very much like to have a fresh start so I can tackle my debts and student loans, and start a family with my boyfriend. If you choose to help me, I will be forever grateful, and pay it forward!