Please help me get my dreams back my family. I had everything it look like from the outside I did had a beautiful home had a beautiful wife and two beautiful little girls. I had a few hardships along the way and it caused wedge between my wife an I. I got super depressed and didn’t know I was depressed and pushed everyone away. I made it worse by isolating myself. The fights got worse only verbal I said some things I shouldn’t have and I paid for them dearly. she filed for divorce and temporary restraining order. Everything was awarded to her of course She and the kids stayed in the house and I had to go. She had control of all the bank accounts for the bills and I was on the street. I slept in my car most nights at my job when I couldn’t afford a hotel my depression got worse I’m drinking got worse an i had to see my kids through set up visitations. I was upset I’d never been away from my kids this long they’re my best friends. We did everything together, they have a big beautiful backyard that they help me build all of it. A playground, zip line, an everything it’s amazing. The divorce was finalized 3 weeks shy of us being married 12 years. she won everything an I just wanted it to stop and go back in time. I was too depressed I didn’t fight her in court and get an attorney.I wanted my family back my dreams or one day all of us being on a farm that way the girls can have many animals,like they kind of already do. I’ve been seeing my ex-wife again now for four or five months. my family and I are trying to make this work again. We actually have a trip to Disney coming up in 3 months. It is almost paid for except for our flights. this has been in the works and plan for years that’s one of the biggest dreams that we have besides owing a farm. I’m still battling my depression and I’m still battling Courts not against Jessica. Just against a trespassing charge I got for me showing up at my own home when I wasn’t supposed to be there. She has tried to go up there and drop it but the state won’t let her. So now I’m battling the state when it’s doing nothing but keeping our family apart longer. It has affected my job so much that I lost it I don’t have a car anymore because I don’t have a job and I’ve just become more of a financial burden and I still don’t even have an attorney. I’m so close to having my family back again and my life and my dreams and I feel like I’m going to lose it again when I don’t even have it. I just want to give up. I want my dreams my family back.