Hi, my name is Cassie and I need a working car. I am not really sure what to say here because I am not used to asking for help. I work hard but my health is making that very difficult. I moved my family back to my hometown to take care of my mom when she first got sick. I took car of her for years and while she had awhile when she was better yet not able to work, I took over her job at the family business. For a couple years I worked a night job and her job all while running errands for my parents and taking her to all her doctor appointments. I ended up leaving the overnight job because I was too run down to and my body just about put me in the hospital.
We found out later on she had cancer so her appointments increased. We lived with them for 5 years and just before we found out about her cancer we purchased a house in a neighboring town. Housing prices are ridicules in this area. I took her job over full time but was able to get away for her appointments and treatments. I developed an infection myself and spent 4 days in the hospital and in that time a sister of mine happened to be visiting my folks and so she took over out mom’s care while I was recovering. During this time my mom’s health took a bad turn and she ended up in the hospital herself.
My sister returned to her home and mom remained in the hospital. A week later she passed.
I carry a lot of guilt. I feel guilty for moving out of my parents house, even though I know that had nothing to do with her getting cancer.
I feel guilt for being sick and laid up when mom took her bad turn, even though I know that it was not my fault.
I feel guilt because I don’t think I am taking as good of care of my father now, as I was taking care of my mother then. Even though he doesn’t have any major ailments. He is still working at 83 for the family business which is just riding the “staying open/closing” line.
I feel guilt I talked me oldest son into joining the company and if it goes under he will be stuck.
Because of the guilt I am carrying my stress in weight. I have gotten to the point walking is difficult and standing is can only happen for brief stents. I am 5’9″ and I weigh almost 500lbs. It has gotten embarrassing and even more so now that I need to ask for help.
My husbands father also passed away so we had to travel to Washington to help my mother-in-law move out of her house and pay for her storage units because her husband left with a lot of hidden debt and no funds in the bank.
I have used my money for things for my parents, things to help ease some of my mom’s pain. Thing to make life easier for my dad. I have helped my kids so they didn’t have too get big loans for their college. I have helped the business with purchases to help bring it to the 21st century. It was started by my grandfather in 1944 and is now run by my dad, me and my son. I want it to keep going but making changes are difficult and can be expensive.
And now my car needs major work ($6000ish) and honestly not its not worth the money to repair it. I purchased it for $6000 3 years ago (2005 Ford Expedition) and I already put another $1500 into it. I need a car I can sit behind the steering wheel of. I need help PLEASE!!
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