First of all I want to say hello to everyone out there that will take time out of their lives to read what I am about to write and thank those as well that consider helping. I honestly did not know that there was a site like this that existed. I don’t even know where to begin with all this. How much does anyone out there want to hear about how screwed up things have gotten? I always tell my friends that I’ve been to hell and back two times and fought the devil herself and made it back to live another day lol.
First off let me say I am a forty five year old single dad who is proud to say that I have the best kid a father could ever had asked for. He is my world. He is what gets me up each and every morning and makes me want so much for him to succeed in life. He is nine years old going on thirteen it seems like and although he will always be my little buddy, I am finding it harder to call him that since he has already grown almost to my shoulders and I’m 6’1”. I’ve had my share of ups and downs over the past fifteen to sixteen years and I know there are many people out there in the world that have gone through so much and are as deserving if not more. My son is what makes my heart beat and I do try very hard to not let him down. He relies on me so damn much that I feel sometimes like I’ve let him down because of the breakup and not being a family.
So I guess now I will start with my first ex. I honestly did believe that she was it but to be honest, the way things went down, I guess prove I’m just a bit too nice. I met my first ex when she walked across the street one evening many many years back and asked for a cup of sugar. So cliche I know but it did happen that way and we were together for about five years. My dad had gotten very ill at that time and I was going back and forth to the hospital to see him every day. Well within about two weeks he lost his battle. My dad was my dad and unfortunately while the problem with my father was occurring, I had come home one evening from seeing him at the hospital and who do I find outside my home getting pretty chummy with my wife? Her supervisor from work. Not exactly something I want to see after coming home depressed from dealing with my dad who is dying. It was a bit devastating. My dad would lose his battle soon after and the relationship went sour. I pretty much called it quits the day I came home from work and saw that the house we shared was completely cleaned out. All the furniture was gone, drawers left open and even all the $400 worth of groceries we had just bought from Costco not two days before were removed from the cupboards and from inside the refrigerator. I mean really who does something like that. Insane stuff.
My current ex I met at work about a year and a half after splitting with the last one. Now believe it or not I did truly think my dad was looking out for me from up above and wanted me to be happy again. That’s why we were able to come across each other and end up dating Yes everything was great for the first few years then again went sideways and we ended the relationship. But I did receive one awesome and priceless godsend and that was my son. That is the one great thing I could tell you came out of all the mess I have been through. My boy means so so much to me. I wish I could’ve had things squared away by now but I have not been that fortunate. My son does great in school, gets a lot of praise from his teachers and always tries to help in anything he does. Those are the kinds of things that makes a dad proud.
Let me end by saying a few things. When I went through my divorce I also ended up losing the house to foreclosure which was the start of my downfall. I tried hard to maintain but it became impossible. I went from having a mid 700 credit score to ending up with something like a very low 510 score and all my credit was pretty much shot. I had to let mostly all my accounts become delinquent. I’ve worked very hard to build that score back up but I’m not good enough to get a loan from my bank even with a score about 755. All I’m asking for is a second chance. I truly hope that I do get one and I can get my life back on track with my son. I hate struggling from paycheck to paycheck but unfortunately it is life sometimes. I have no problem paying the bank back or even those that do consider helping me out. It is very hard for me to accept the generosity of strangers because I feel embarrassed about it. I will say this though.. I do believe in returning the favor and giving back if it takes me the next ten years to pay everyone back then so be it. I know that what I ask for may or may not happen or it may only be fulfilled a little. I can’t control fate in this circumstance. All I can do is write out my thoughts and hopes and see what happens. The amount I need is $54,263.69 Yes it is a specific amount and it is not all of my debt. I still have a little more but if I could get assistance with this then my life could change so much better and I would be able to prosper instead of living from check to check. One last thing..I do realize no one out there will know who I am not whether they want to believe me or not. All I can hope for is that people do hear me and understand that I am a real person and not some scam artist. I’m not looking to just receive it. I give my word that I will pay back every last cent even though I don’t know how long it will take. I don’t really prefer to post pictures because I don’t even know what to post aside from selfies but I do not think it is safe to put a picture of myself or especially my son on this site. I do apologize but I don’t feel comfortable doing it. Thank you again for taking the time to read this. It is long but it is all on the up and up. I promise you I would never waste anyone’s time in this matter. If you decide to donate to my cause please note I only use the post office box for all correspondence. My paypal link is
Thank you again for your time and consideration.