Hello, my name is Victoria. I am only 23 years old but I have to live in a disgusting body of mine, and such issue affects my mental and physical health a lot. Why disgusting? Some of you would say, that I shouldn’t say such things about myself and that it’s all about self-acceptance. But no, in my case, it won’t work.
I was diagnosed with obesity when I was only 10 y.o. and since then, I have been suffering a lot to get a fit body and health. I have gone through every possible diet, some of them were very restricting, which later on started leading to the “jojo” effect. Thus, my body has started looking worse and worse – skin would loosen, tighten, then again loosen, get covered in stretch marks – and that only by my 13. Getting older, I kept trying to get into a fit and healthy body. I went through some food behavior studies, and learnt how to eat healthy, started exercising a lot. Yet, it wouldn’t help. My body was struggling and I guess, such challenges were also difficult for me, as a child and teenager. I was bullied, I was hated, even by my own grandmother. I cried a lot. But I still could never get fit and healthy body.
Then, I turned 17 y.o, went to the University in a different country started making friends and continuing my journey with getting fit. I weighed 156 kg when I was in my first year of University in 2016, managed to lose 20 kg by only starving myself and then, I found my way to the gym. I started working out for 5 days per week, eating only 1300 kcal, and lost all my weight to 80 kg. Of course, my body again struggled. I couldn’t undress even on the beach… then the “jojo” kicked in again and everything happened over again – gaining weight, getting stretch marks and etc. However, I wouldn’t suffer from an eating disorder or anything, I would only start exercising less or eat 1600 kcal… Then the same road, but now with the help of an endocrinologist and new diagnosis – insulin resistance… Meaning, that I would have to weigh 60 kg and not have fat deposits to get healthy. Which I dream so much about – I want to be healthy and fit! I lost some weight, but not all fat deposits. And my loose skin again was and still is everywhere. My body again looks ugly, no matter how much I’ve tried – going to gym, eating healthy… I have noticed that I stopped being happy. Every time I get dressed, I struggle, as I realize that even though my face is beautiful, as well as my soul is (I have a husband who says so; and, I’ve got at around 80 students whom I teach at the University, and they adore me as much as I adore them), all the clothes are baggy, uncomfortable and make me feel trapped. I avoid going to swim with my friends, I avoid sometimes even looking in the mirror as I know, what I will see there…
Realization that I have been fighting for health and being fit for almost my whole life, and still haven’t got any luck with it, suppresses me mentally, and I even started struggling from anxiety and depression.
There is a solution! I have been thinking about it a lot and have finally decided – I need it! I found a talented doctor, plastic surgeon, who can help me with my issue. He can get rid of all my fat deposits, loose skin (which I have a lot), and revitalize it. The cost of a whole surgery with rehabilitation is 35000 dollars.
I need your help and money with getting healthy so much! It is not about beauty at all (that will be an incredible bonus), it is about getting rid of fat cells and deposits, so I could start getting healthier and my insulin resistance would disappear. I just want to be normal. I want to finally be successful in my fight for health after 13 years (soon to be 14) of trying! I am exhausted and damaged after all the bullying and hatred, but still, I want to have a wonderful, healthy and very long life.
To this request, I am pinning one of my latest photos, which I was ashamed to post because of how I look like. Though, I am happily smiling there, as it’s my wedding photo, to be honest, the only thing that I was thinking there about was: how can I look better on the photo than I really am? My anxiety there took over, and didn’t allow me to be the happiest person once again…
Please, help me! All I need is 35000 dollars!
Here is my PayPal link, where you can send your donations and help me get healthy and happy: