I guess this is a long shot, what I want is quite a big ask, I get that. I can’t believe I am resorting to begging. My dignity aside, I need to ask for help to secure a better life for my wife and children. Where do I start… anyway, I’m a 46yr old man. Been in and out of work all of my life due to a neurological disorder I developed when I was 8 years old which I had no help with and I hid from everyone most of my life.
Because of this disorder we ended up losing our much loved family home back in 2010, since then our lives have been a bit of a rollercoaster moving from house to house in rented unsuitable accommodation. My mental health took a sever hit over the last decade and contemplated suicide a few times due to my disorder & my failing careers, it’s made me feel like a terrible parent and role model to my children.
One of my children has the same neurological disorder as me and also autism. I still struggle with employment and the ability to hold down my mental health problems from day to day.
All I’ve ever wanted is a stable base for my children, but because I can’t provide the way I want to, we are unable to purchase another property. Now, because my child has Autism they need a stable base and their own space which we can’t provide for & we don’t get any help with the situation.
My wife currently works and it makes me feel like a failure because I do not/can not work. Any position I go for, I am usually turned down immediately due to the stigma surrounding my condition. Trust me, I have tried so hard to keep finding work to no avail, and suffer greatly with rejection issues because of it. Most companies say they are disability friendly, when in actual fact, they are just ticking boxes to please the government. I have witnessed discrimination first hand because of my disability. I love my family and would just love to provide that stability that is needed for them, I’m tired of seeing my wife work herself to the bone while I appear useless in comparison. I’ve told her on many occasions that she would be better off without me, the children would benefit from somebody else who could financially provide for them. But she loves me no matter what and in honesty my kids are like the air to me, I can’t live without them. They are the reason I never followed through with ending my life.
Like I said, I know this is a BIG ask, but what would make life so much easier and bearable would be the chance to have a stable home. The house prices are expensive around here and I’ll never have any hope being able to buy again because of my condition. My dream is just to have a humble home with a garden and somewhere my autistic child can escape and have her own space.
To do this, I would need around £200,000 to secure a home for life. I know it’s a big ask and I feel ashamed of myself for asking, but it’s a last resort of sorts for me to do something nice for my family and to feel like a worthy Dad to my kids.
The disorder I have is Tourette Syndrome amongst a host of other mental issues which are part and parcel of the condition. I have been bullied most of my life in most jobs and of course as a child at school. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 30 years old, which by that point I’d spent 22 years thinking I was insane! But unfortunately, because of that, it’s had many repercussions on my mental well being and I struggle to know who I am as a person most days, because of the years I spent trying to hide my condition.
I am exhausted trying to hold it together and just ask that one thing… For a home that is ours. It would lift so much financial burden.
Please, if by the grace of god you can help. Me and my family would be eternally grateful to you.
here is my PayPal link if you wish to help: https://bit.ly/3RXEH0z
Thank you.