Hello there, to who is reading this. I don’t really know how to do this but am just gonna try to saying how my situation is: I am 23 years old, currently studying ( Master’s degree) and I live with my boyfriend(away from home, in a different country. I came to this country to be with him, as well as to study, since the country I am currently in gives better study opportunities, but with a limited budget that I saved up when I was working in the summer during college through Erasmus programs. However, despite living together, we don’t share the everyday costs and utilities. He mainly pays for those because, unlike me, he worked for a period and still does it intermittently when his school program allows it. I know, why don’t I also work?To be honest.., I just feel that I cannot manage both a master’s and working. My school schedule is pretty messy, so I find it hard to fit working into it, plus it is hard for me to focus on more things at the same time. ( I know, it doesn’t sound like what an adult does, but that’s how I am..) As a matter of fact, before coming here I was determined that I would also get a job, besides studying.. But I guess my planning didn’t go that great.. You cannot just imagine some plans and expect reality to shape itself after it.
But moving on, I just feel very bad because I am not providing any financial help, like.. I wish I could just buy food myself too.. and stop feeling so bad all the time because of it..
I forgot to mention that my studies are fee-free. So this wouldn’t be for paying my study fees, but for everyday life. And if it will be enough for everyday living, and a bit extra, then I would like to send my parents back home some money too because they are struggling very much.( My parents live in the countryside, and they depend on their crops and cows for their daily income, but that it’s hardly only enough to survive the days.. and my dad is awfully sick because when he was younger he abused alcohol.. and because of being sick, he stays inside the house most of the time, which leaves my mom to have to do all the hard work thats hers, but his also.. and she doesn’t have the strength for that..and so every now and then she may have a glass of home-made booze to give her some strength to carry out with the daily tasks… but the thing is that she is also on pills for anxiety/depression.. and combining that with alcohol…. it’s just really not good. So I wish I could provide them some money too to ease their work somehow.. I plan on doing also when i finish my studies and get a proper job, but for now I cannot do that…) All in all, everything stresses me and sometimes depresses me and I just don’t know what to do.. so here I am at almost 3 am in the morning writing this, hoping that it would reach someone..
So however may be reading this… I have no special charity reasons to ask for donations.. I am a simple person struggling with everyday life who is now asking for your help.. I hope that one day I will be able to replay it, perhaps not directly back to you, reader, but to the world.
I don’t know how I left you after reading what I said, I just wanted to say the truth and how things are currently in my life and hopefully.. something good would come out of it. I must admit, I do feel bad for asking for donations.. whereas I should just work off my ass, but like I said, I don’t feel I can cope with both work and studies.. so just for now, when things are trembling, I ask for a bit of help..
Life isn’t easy and everyone has their own battle to fight, and that is why I hope that one day I will be able to repay the world.. Good comes with small things.. step by step.
If my wish had any power, I would just wish that we would all be happy, healthy, free of problems, enjoying life and all there is to it.. But life ain’t easy..
So whoever you may be, traveler, I thank you deeply for your consideration and I hope that life gets better for everyone that’s struggling.. We got to stay strong and fight true. Never give up, and always get back on our feet!
(The photo is of some beautiful mesmerizing geese that I came across while biking one morning on my way to school. They were simply so enchanting and such big creatures)
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