I doubt this will go through because I know you get a lot of messages and Im too embarrassed to even write on it with my current situation and wanted to drop you a message…And I just want to share my story with you & how I need a blessing so bad right now.
hi! I’m Charlotte. I’m 26 from the uk :)
So. Let’s do a brief summary. Really shitty childhood (abuse of different types, rape, self harm, ect) however I thought I put all of that behind me and decided to live my best life! We moved to London and I was doing my dream job of an occupational therapist for adults with mental health issues and I loved every minute of it. The giving, the making people happy, just giving them the time of day when others just couldn’t be arsed. Where I worked we became a really close knit family.
Then I got poorly. I suffered from a cvst. Which is a rare form of a stroke. Now I had already been suffering with hypermobilty and arthritis but I embraced it. Even got a funky cane! Then the cvst happened, a few weeks in hospital and it’s inoperable, Clive the clot in my brain is here to stay. On top of that, it had triggered auto immune diseases.. the main ones, aps, ITP, and lupus. So. There goes my dream job. We leave London to be near family.
I visit several consultants and have at least 7 vials of bloods took a week, on at least 16 different tablets a day, inject myself with blood thinners twice a day. Then. I get told it highly unlikely I ever conceive and if I do… the child will either die before they are born or be several disabled. Like I’m 24. At this point I’m devastated. I have 2 step children, but I would never get to know the love of my own child & explains my previous miscarriages.
Well. The doctors were wrong. After a very stressful, horrible, heartbreaking pregnancy, I gave birth to a tiny baby boy. Our little miracle. Now obviously after he was born I really struggled I wasn’t expecting a baby to be here in my arms, I nearly got put in a mother and baby unit. The stress of having a baby, the lack of financials because I had to stop working and the shocking benefit system… (my partner earns to much but not enough to support 3!)
So debts pilled up, credit cards maxed, we moved back into his parents where we are now.
I felt like a complete failure.
Any blessing would be more than appreciated and hopefully clear us of some debts & out of overdrafts… thank you for reading xx