ok so for 2 years I was in a abusive relationship well I finally worked up the nerve to leave after two back to back suicide attempts I had forced my self to live before how was I allowing someone to make me wish I was dead and by that I mean I used to be a iv drug addict I made myself get clean cold turkey and I did it alone and no help I was proud of my self but then than man I had feel in love with would use my past to hurt me when he would get drunk and take all his frustrations with the world and his life out on me he loved accusing me of being high when I wasn’t knowing I was going to defend myself against his words then that would give him a reason to physically assault me and I had no help to get away he had basically cut me off from the whole world I wasn’t allowed to leave my house but 1 hour a week when he would take me to the grocery I walked on eggshells Dailey hoping not to get beat up each night I was so depressed I tried to end my own life twice after the second time I packed a bag of clothes got a tent out of the closet and got my dog walked out the door hoping and praying that because I had finally left life had to get better right wrong I’ve been homeless since I can’t catch a break anywhere from the abuse I suffered not only in those two years but basically my whole life has caused social anxiety so severely that if I’m around more than three or four people at a time to have panic attacks severely so I can’t get a normal job i tried working in construction and the loud noises would cause anxiety and panic attacks I need to go to the doctors for mental health cause mine is at the worst it has ever been I’ve been diagnosed with serve depression PTSD serve anxiety social anxiety just to name a few in the past but now I can’t go to the doctor because I can’t take my dog every were with me she’s my world and really the only reason I get threw the days I put her wellbeing way ahead of my own but I need to worry about me now also but I have nowhere to take her noone to watch her while I go to a doctor because I can’t leave her alone in my tent while I’m gone I don’t trust that she would be there when I returned I need help getting started in life again some kind of housing so I can get the help we need I make sure she’s ok Dailey she will somehow have food and water even if I don’t and I’m fine with that but she look so sad sometimes it breaks my heart that she’s suffering because I was suffering and left our home sometime I wonder if I should have just stayed and just kept dealing with it at least we would have a home and I wouldn’t worry so much about how we were going to eat and she wouldn’t look at me so sad but I also know if I would’ve stayed I’d probably be dead or end up dead when I left I had noone no kind of help and I should had tried to find help before hand but I thought I’ll leave and life has to get better right just has to I didn’t realize how messed up I was from everything I’ve been threw and I’m at the point of giving up and just relapsing so I don’t have to deal any more and I know for both our sakes that’s not what I need to do so this is my last option is to ask for help and I don’t know if this is the right way or not and I hate asking people for anything and I wouldn’t if I didn’t truly need it I don’t know how much longer I can keep forcing my self to get up daily I desperately need some kind of housing so I can get the mental help I need so I can hopefully function as a human again because I’ve been made to believe I’m less than for about my whole life so if anyone can help or will help please it won’t be for a lost cause I promise thank you I’m advance for even just reading this paypal.me/bugsy201987