So..I don’t know where to start. It’s really hard to ask for help from strangers, but at the time I don’t know anymore what to do.
I’m a student in media field and an artist. I will get my degree on December 2019, or that’s what i have planned – my situation now isn’t good.
Two years ago after struggling with severe depression and traumas from being bullied and being a child of an alcoholic, I was really close to get my life back together. I got an apartment, part-time job and I got into my dream school. I was really happy to start living my life. Then one day, I was about to go to work and I got a massive panic attack. Never had experienced that before. It lasted over 1 hour, and i needed an ambulance. After that first panic attack the feeling of panic lasted. I didn’t go away, I couldn’t leave my apartment, I was too afraid to even fall asleep.
Well, when you are a student and have a job, problem with leaving your home is a real problem. I got an appointment to the doctor – had to wait for 4 weeks for that. So I ended with loosing my job and my being a student. That means I didn’t have an income.
Going back to current time, I have overcome the panic disorder – It haunts me everyday but I can live with that. The issue is that years ago, when this started I couldn’t pay my bills – now, i’m in a huge knot, I can’t pay my living. I can’t pay my rent, electricity – anything. Today my phone stopped working, cause of the problems with paying phone bills. I’m trying to get a job – any job, but know one can get in touch with me, they can’t call me.
So what I’m asking for is help, it doesn’t matter how much you can help me, any financial help is needed. All i hope, is to get my degree, keep my apartment, get a job and help others who are in this situation.
I am really thankful for you to read this desperate letter, If you can help me, thank you.