My name is Renee. I never have asked for help in my life. So much has gone wrong in the past few years. Honestly I can not take it any more. I went from working 3 jobs and being independent to disabled. I can never work again. That’s a hard pill to swallow. Especially I’m a worker. I am a very caring person that goes out of there way to help people. Now when I need the help no one steps up to the plate. I am 53 yrs old in chronic pain daily. Honestly the only thing that keeps me going is my little support dog. So much has gone wrong I really don’t know where to begin.
I lost my father when I was only 11 yrs old. My mother never remarried. So I had no father figure. He missed out on watching me grow up. A month after I lost my father I lost my best friend. A drunk driver hit her and her Mom. Killed my best friend instantly she was only 11 yrs old. I have moved 26 times in my life. That’s the way my mom made her money. Now my mother is 78 yrs old. She’s had 8 heart attacks. Had a pace maker put in. They did a quadruple bypass. We just found out it’s not working and she has to go threw it all over again. God only knows if she will survive this operation. For me I put my life on hold to take care of her and my grandmother. God blessed us with her in our life for 100 yrs. She died in my arms.
I became disabled and wasn’t able to get help to afford our home. We lost it. My Mom is in a senior living place. I finally found the Love of my life and got married 2 yrs ago. For my husband he went threw a bad divorce that he lost everything. We even lost his house due to pipes breaking and flooding the whole house out. That’s been 8 months ago. Still the insurance company is still going back and forth. They don’t want to pay. We had to find an apartment for a short period. Figuring that the house to get fixed. They had to completely gut house down to studs. It’s been sitting like that for 7 months. So we have been in the cheapest hotel we could find. We can’t afford it anymore. My husband is working 14 hours a day 7 days a week just to put a roof over our heads. I hardly see him.
As for me. I have spinal synopsis, fibromyalgia, heart Arrhythmia, the disc in my neck are bulging, disc deteration diease, my lower back have bulging disc, herniated disc, just found out there bone on bone. Nothing they can do. Dr say I am a mystery. They expect to see it in a 80 yard old not 53 yr old. I have Anxiety and suffer from depression. I had cancer in my uterus and had to have a full hysterectomy. I have the worst case of Endometritis they have ever seen. My dream of having children went out the door. I had a brain bleed from an accident I was in. So I suffer from migraines that I have to go into hospital to be put on an IV for 3 hours. I had gastric bypass surgery that they said I would loose some of my hair. I did loose a lot. They NEVER said I would loose my teeth. I had beautiful teeth. I was a Dental assistant. Now I have none. They just kept getting loose, breaking etc. I have been without teeth for almost a year now. Very difficult to eat. I am embarrassed and humiliated to even show my face in public. Hard for me to talk. They made 2 dentures for me. Neither one was right. Went to see about implants but there more than a car. I’m just disgusted. I get more depressed staying in this hotel room day in day out looking for a place to live. I just can’t catch a break. No body wants a animal in there house or apartment. Even thou she’s a service animal 15 pounds. They don’t care. I black out a lot they can’t seem to find out why. It’s one thing after another. Thank God my husband is a strong man that he’s my rock. It breaks my heart seeing him work like he does at 55 yrs old. He has bad knees. So bad they have been scoped out 2 times. But keeps building crystals up. Crack knee cap doesn’t help. He’s on his feet all day. We both are still some what young. We shouldn’t be in this pain at our ages. I go to a pain clinic. Who wants to live on pain pills. They only take the pain away for an hour. It’s hard for me to walk. The cold brings my body into spasms which is so painful when they hit I can’t move. It like freezes my body in one position and not able to move.
I never expected my life to turn out like this. All I ever wanted was a family of my own and my career. I’m trying to be strong, but it’s so hard. I have been threw so much and still going threw. I don’t know where to turn to get help. I know sitting in a hotel room always crying and praying doesn’t help. Too cold for me to go out and get air. I just want to find a place to live so we can have a home. I don’t want to spend Christmas in a hotel room. I guess it’s better than in a car or on street. We are heading in that direction. It scares me. We can’t keep paying 4,000 for a hotel room. Our car payments are getting behind. Tired of going to bed hungry. I’m just tired. I was giving Plasma to get extra money. I can’t do it anymore. Don’t have enough protein in my body. Don’t want to create another health issue. You know.
So I’m asking if there is anybody out there that could help me. These Landlords want first,last, and Security deposit. With rents over 2,000 it’s expensive. I can’t even find a place under 2,300. I don’t want to end up loosing my vehicle. I already have lost so much already. Friends and family can’t afford to help. So that’s why I’m reaching out to the world for help.
It is very tough to go from having your beauty, career, and home ripped away from you. I feel so ugly. I used to model back in the day. It’s been so long since I have smiled or laughed. I was a happy go lucky person. Life of the party. The funniest person out of the friends. Now I hide. I don’t talk to anyone any more. It’s just hard. So I’m asking I guess you could say for a Christmas Miracle. Desperately need teeth, home, and get out of debit. Don’t know really how much to ask. Anything will help.
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Thank you for listening. God Bless Happy holidays.