Hi, I go by the name Emzy. I’m currently 20 years old and been enrolling at a Saint Paul College for the last two years. I’m a first generation student coming from a low income family household so obtaining a college degree is not common in my immediate family. I was very fortunate to go to school tuition-free because I was in the POY program and attending at a community college is more affordable.
The last two years, I’ve been struggling to figure out what I want to do in my life. All I know is that I’ve always been interested in Psychology due to a personal experience in high school. When I was 15 years old, my life turned upside down. I was depressed and suicidal during my teenage years because of the trauma I experienced. It was my first time going to the ER and getting treated when I was 17. At the time, I didn’t know what was happening. I thought it was a ticket for me to escape from school and the people that hurt me. When I was admitted to a unit with other teenagers that shared similar experiences with me, I realized that I wasn’t the only one. Later on, I was told that I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD and Clinical Depression. I was discharged in two weeks which was earlier than expected due to my mother’s request.
This event has impacted me in a negative way and I’ll never forget it. I knew that after going through this obstacle, I wanted to help others find clarity and healing within themselves. I’ve always believed that understanding is better than debating whether something is right or wrong. It’s easy to make a bad decision, I’m sure we’ve all done it before but sometimes we don’t understand why we did it. I’ve always been the type of person that thinks there’s a reason behind everything.
Long story short, seeking to understand human behavior and mindset has always fascinated me. I want to know what makes a person become a serial killer, why does my brother have anger issues or why does an adult act like a child? I feel like there’s a stigma to psychiatry and I want to shed light about mental health. It’s not about taking medication but finding and understanding yourself.
I want to change the game in psychiatry, I believe there’s many more possibilities of treating and helping people especially when technology is always improving. I know I have a long way to go in terms of education until I can become a real medical doctor. I feel like the best psychiatrists are the people who have the most experience especially if you were once a patient before. I decided to change my major to Health Sciences after two years of majoring in something that I’m not passionate about. This upcoming fall semester, I’m starting premed then attend medical school after obtaining my bachelors. The only reason why I didn’t start sooner is because of my financial situation. I live with my parents and we live from paycheck to paycheck. I know that becoming a doctor is a commitment and something you have to be passionate for. It is my dream to be a psychiatrist and become the first doctor in my bloodline.
I am hoping to raise $50,000 so I can afford going to medical school, live on my own and get a car without receiving financial help from my parents. I’m currently taking courses to become a CNA so I can earn some income while gaining experience in the healthcare field before going to medical school. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. Please take care of your mental health and know that it’s okay to take breaks when it’s needed. Have a beautiful day.