Hello,
I am going to tell you first a little about me and what my life was like.
When I was a child of 6 my mom and dad divorced. The kids stayed with my mom
because my dad was gone at work 6 months out of the year. For two
years that fallowed the divorce we lived in Arizona. Mom, my older half
brother Mark age 10, little sister Lisa age 4, and little brother Scott age 2 and
myself. In that time I was forced to play mom to my siblings. Mark and I would
steal from the store to feed the kids and Mark got in with some bad people to
make money. He was the only one that tried to make things okay for us. He
would step in front of me and take the beatings when mom got to drunk. I
remember at least 3 times I had to bring him back to me after she hit him to
many times. Thinking how it would be if he died. Who would love me then. In
one of the things he did to make money he got arrested. When they called to tell
my mom she told them to keep him. Then turned on me. For the next year we
moved around leaving my big brother in Arizonan. We lived in tents and hid from
C.P.S. When we finely moved in to my aunts garage I was 13 years old and had
been malleted and raped by my moms friend for a year. I was also with a boy
from school. He was a freshman and I was in 7th grade. I got pregnant at 14.
Kicked out of school and a single mom I had no idea what was going to happen
but I loved my baby so much. Her dad had got with someone ells and had a
doughtier a few months after Destany was borne. My Valentines gift. By the end
of 1996, Destany and I had become a team. I was happy for the first time in my
life. We had been living with a man until the I found out that he was cheating
with a woman he worked with. We had no place to go so I made the worst
mistake of my life and called Destiny’s dad, that had move to Oregon for help. I
was not going to live with my baby on the street so when he said to go stay at his
mother in laws I did. We had talked a few times about Destany spending time
with him for a few months out of the year. One day after I took Destany to his
brothers to be watched as I went to a job interview, he showed up at the door
asking to take Destany for a while. I said we can talk about it after I was finished
with my interview. I was talking with the manager of the restaurant when his wife
called the restaurant and tells me that Destany is on a plain with her dad on the
way to Oregon. No worming, he did not even take her clothes. I called the police
and they said they could not do anything because he was her dad and there was
no court order custody. I did every thing I could to find help no one would help
me get her or to her. So I put my thumb to work and was in Oregon by the end of
1998. I did not know where they lived other then they moved to Newport Or.
I filled the papers to get the custody in motion. Found a job and asked to see her.
A week before Christmas 1998, we met at a Walmart in Newport, I spent two
hours with her shopping for anything she wanted. He would not let me alone at
all with her. Putting her in the car and listing to her ask me why she could not go
with me and crying so hard I could not breath, I watched my little one drive away
with the man that had stolid her from me and hated that I could not do the same
to him. I wanted to do it the right way so that he could never take her away from
me again. Two days latter we got into it on the phone about him letting me see
her for Christmas and I did not see her until she was 19 years old. He did it, but
so good this time no matter how hard I tried I could not find them. As time went
on I lost my self. I got my self in to so many bad situations. I lived on the street,
for 8 years looking for anything, I would jump in a truck that would pick me up
hitch hiking the second I would get a lead were she could be. I went from
Orogen to Tennessee, and most places in-between. When I landed back in
Arizonan because my Grandparents’ had died I got mixed up in drugs and by
2008 was in prison for bad checks. I was there for a year when my sister wrights
telling me that she saw my baby in the drive trough in Alaska and she gave me
the address. I still had 2 years to go and now she was 16 years old. I sent he a
letter and she told my sister she was not ready to talk to me. So when she was
asking to meet me at 19 I dropped everything and meet her in Orogen, we spent
one hole day together. I was so scared and happy! it was a grate day! Then I said
that I thought her dad owed me a apology, we got in a fight and now we talk on
face book. She told me she was wanting to move out to Arizona to spend time
with me last week. I have had some heath problems and we do not want to waste
anymore time. I have nothing for her and my grandbaby’s. no job, even though I
try my record holds me back. I am in collage now for Hospitality management. I
got my G.E.D in prison. I live in the ghettos of Phoenix and at times still fight
depuration. I want to give her all the things I could not when we lost that time,
My grandbaby’s can not come to this place I live its to dangerous. I feel like I have
failed so much in life. I should have a home that is safe for her and her baby’s. I
am 3 months past dew on rent. I have a car payment that is way to high because I
have no credit. I do not make more then $600.00 unemployment. I am looking
for work. School is suffering dew to my heath. I will get back on track though. I
just want to have a home for my family where they will never have to worry about
not having a home. I was alone just myself from 14 to now with the exception of a
few men in my life. I have had no family to give my love to. I am going to be 40
and I have to have my little girl know I love her. I never want her to feel that she
is homeless and alone or that she is not loved.
I would like to get, $2,046,000.00 to by a house for my family. I would like to be able to give them that house when I die. I want to spend the life I have left making up the time we have pasted. Please!