First let me introduce myself. My name is Beth. I’d like to start by saying Thank you for clicking on my link and taking the time to read about my story. Before I begin I’d like to ask that anyone that has anything negative to say please either keep it to yourself or please private message me on FB to Beth Krites. Please do not comment on this campaign because my 3 children will be reading this and well….it’s just not necessary really. Now on with the story of ME. So this is my second attempt at this GoFundMe page today lol. Why? You ask. Well for a few weeks now I have been struggling with whether it would be a good idea for me to move out of state or not and after a lot of thought & discussions with my family and friends I decided that it was indeed the right choice. You see I am a recovering drug addict and by recovering I mean about a week in. This is not the first time I’ve been sober but I hope that it is my last time getting sober. Anyway I had finally made up my mind about moving and started putting my plans into action. Well if you’ve ever planned a move to another state you know it’s not cheap and being a newly sober drug addict I don’t have much money saved up. My job doesn’t pay a whole lot but what it does pay went to keeping a roof over my head and supporting my habit. I’ve started the daunting process of selling things I have accumulated over the last year that I just see no reason in dragging across several states and I’ve been saving part of my paychecks as well but it’s just not enough. I don’t want this move to be for nothing. I want this to be the start of the life God had intended for me to live all along. I want to be able to survive until I find a job and be able to pay for my own food and the essentials on my own without adding any extra burden onto my wonderful friend that is taking me in when I get there. Let me go ahead and tell y’all real quick just how hard it is to be doing this GoFundMe right now. For me being an addict is just something I’ve always been and I had resigned myself to the fact that I was always going to be a failure. I had given up trying to be a good mother, a good daughter and a good friend a long time ago because I just assumed no one cared. No one was offering me any kind of help or way out so I just sat in my misery until one night in November the man I wanted to be with the rest of my life was killed during an attempted robbery. Now some of you may be saying “well he got what was coming to him”, or ” That lifestyle is bound to get you killed so what did you expect”? But to me he was anything but deserving of death. He was the love of my life but he was also an addict. It’s not an excuse it’s a fact. And fact is that addicts will do whatever to get well. Especially when you’re a heroin addict. Fast forward to about 4 mths after his death and I sat in my room crying again for endless hours about how my life had gone so terribly wrong so fast. Just a year earlier I was 3 yrs sober and doing great until I wasn’t. And I sat crying praying for a way out when I thought to myself “Beth, you have a way out, it’s in the bag on the table”. That night I thought about dying and how wonderful it would be to see Ralph again and how I would be free of all this shit on earth. Then it was like God was talking to me because at that moment my phone had slipped out of my hand and hit the floor and when I picked it up I had obviously hit the gallery button on my phone and a picture of my 3 perfect kids was on the screen and in that moment I knew I had to make a change. I still struggled for a few more months with heroin until about a week ago when I finally said enough is enough. I talked to my babies and they were all for me doing what I have to do to get Me back. So that’s what I’m doing. I’m on a mission to save my life. So if any of you could put your faith into a worn out junkie filled with a bucket full of hope I’d be forever grateful. You will be doing me a service that I could never find the words to express my gratitude. The only way I’ll be able to say thank you loud enough is by showing you the new Me once I’ve reached my 1 year sober mark. I will do this for Me, I will do this for my kids, I will do this for every struggling addict still suffering. And I won’t ever be afraid to ask for help again. Not asking kept me stuck in my addiction and dying for way too long. So if you’d like to donate please feel free and know it means the world to me and if all you can do is hit the share button well that shows you care enough to give someone else the opportunity to help. Either way I’m grateful for you. Thanks all for reading. Pray for me please and for all the struggling addicts that haven’t found the courage to ask for help.