Good day & thank you to anyone taking the time to read this,
I have to say I was brought up not to beg for things and am not too comfortable with it.
I’ve been told often in life that I should ask for help, as I do find it difficult. “If you don’t ask you don’t get” I’ve been told many times. But I’m hoping that the Angels looking over your shoulders right now will nudge you to assist me to a bright new beginning and fresh start. And that you too will also be even more abundantly blessed. I’m asking for urgently needed financial assistance. I’m currently not working due to ill health but would love to earn a living doing what I love from home.
Living in a small apartment block, above a neighbour that seems to be unstable & stalking me, is extremely distressing. I decided to get up very early this morning to write this letter at 5.30 am, while it’s quiet and to avoid this young man. It’s become a habit for me to tip toe & tread lightly while walking around, but no matter what I do he seems to know when I’m moving around.
I’m ten minutes into writing this letter, and he’s already up and slamming doors, which can often cause my walls, windows, and floors to vibrate with the force of the bangs.
This 22-year-old seems obsessed and has also threatened me when I asked politely if he and his friends could keep the noise down as it was after midnight. I even gave him furniture silencers to attach to his doors to help him. To no avail, the door banging got worse. On one occasion having to involve police. I feel unsafe, insecure here & experiencing privacy violation and at my age and stage in life, deserve to live in peace & safety.
In short, I don’t want to make this letter about him, as I’m a young at heart, mind and looks – others tell me many times that I don’t look my age. I’m also a creative – I love painting, singing and art & crafts hobbies. This is what makes me feel good, and when I’m in the flow it feels amazing. I also love to write and have started a blog as I want to share some of my life experiences to help others to heal emotionally and mentally.
I was born into a dysfunctional family that I left at a young age and unfortunately ended up in an abusive marriage. Fortunately, I walked away and raised 4 children as a lone parent after divorce. After 17 difficult years my children have flown the nest, but the years of stress & struggle have left me with health issues, also from childhood trauma which has taken many years to heal & still.
Thankfully I’m very proud of my children. Two went to university, one gained her master’s degree & a son who is musically gifted (in my biased opinion!). Now it’s time to realise my dreams, but what money I had, which wasn’t much to start with, was used to help them out. I discovered my creativity & artistic skills to get through the hardships. I’ve missed opportunities because of lack of money or time, when my children were younger. I dream of what I could accomplish of my own creation, in the right circumstances
But living with the above situation and other difficulties here is blocking creativity. As I’m spending more time in anxiety, struggling to keep depression at bay, while focused on issues around me. A large area of my bedroom carpet is currently damp to walk on, as water from my bathroom is seeping up through the floor. But my landlords don’t see this as urgent to deal with for another few weeks.
I have also recently had surgery and won’t bore you with details of how this property is negatively impacting my health. I am about empowerment of myself and others and as I’ve been encouraged a few times to write a book that could help heal others and myself, I want to make this dream a reality. I have a lot to give & want a chance to accomplish this before I leave this earth.
The sun is coming up over the horizon as I write this, a rare occurrence here in England at this time of year. So, I hope this is a sign that a new and bright beginning is possible for me. I’m sure you get thousands of similar requests. I don’t even know how much monies to ask for. Just enough to be able to move to a new location and a fresh start to help myself and it would be my joy to pay it forward and help others with their emotional and mental healing journey, as I feel it’s my purpose to turn my pain into power.
If you could assist me with at least fifteen thousand pounds, enough to move home or whatever you feel is just, I would very much appreciate it.
I thank you in advance if you feel moved to assist me.
Paypal.me/miss308