Current Situation ~
I’m a CNA working fulltime on a very low salary each month; not enough to put money aside. I’ve been looking into getting a second job but it’s hard due to my working hours.
As you’ve seen the headline, I’m in a abusive relationship.
Emotionally and sometimes physically.
I’m living kind of far from my hometown, friends and family, that I rarely get to see. The only social interactions I have is at work. Once I am at home, all I do is doing chores, like cooking and cleaning, or having him vent on me because he is not satisfied with me. Honestly, he was such a cute guy when we met. I really thought he was the one. But a couple years into the relationship, he started to treat me like the second choice. And almost a year ago, he started to hurt me, from time to time. I’m depressed, anxious and suicidal and I just want to leave.
No day passes where I feel happy to be here. I wish I never moved to this City and having to depend on this man.
We’ve been dating a little over 7 years now.
At the beginning, he was such a sweet guy. He was so supportive and kind.
I really considered myself lucky. Unfortunately, I broke up the contact to some of my old friends, because he didn’t like them. (Which was a huge mistake, i know it now.) I started to become more and more depending on him, like he wants to have control over my bank account and stuff like this.
I’ve been planning to leave for a year now. My first option was moving together with my best friend but she ghosted on me when I needed her the most. So.. ya.
With my current salary I can’t even afford a single room right now, because and that’s, I admit it, my fault. I’m in debts.
I was so depressed I didn’t really care about anything. The bills stacked up and up.. and I’ve been paying off as much as I can but I feel like I don’t make any progress. I have 5k left in debts. And in Germany, it’s super hard to find a place to rent because they do a debt Background check. (I tried. No luck.)
So.. I’ve been looking for any possible Option to make Money and stumbled across this Website, hoping anyone will read this.
I know this might not sound to bad to you probably, but I can’t take this anymore. I’m 23 years old now. I don’t want to suffer like this for more and more years. Please help me so I can find an Apartment as soon as possible, and go back to my hometown.
I don’t even care about having furniture or anything in the first place, I just want the debts to be gone, and be away from him.
Thank you for taking your time to read this. Really.