My story so far.
Ok for starters I really don’t see this working but it’s worth a shot. Where to start though is the question. I will tell you a bit about myself to start with, I have 3 kids (living) and on and off partner (mother to all of my kids). I was once in a bad relationship (not the current one) where I was abused mentally and sometimes physically I was with this person when my mother died and couldn’t even go to her funeral. this person also stabbed me 3 times and when I had enough and managed to finally leave I got left in huge amounts of debt which I have carried on for years now but always falling behind on them. I left the state I grew up in to get away from her and had to leave my 2 kids at that time which hurt so much. I went off the rails for a long time but eventually got myself together and came back to where I’m living now with my partner and one thing led to another and we ended up pregnant with twins so there was a lot of going to and from docs and all the things that come with twins. Fast forward a bit and I’m getting ready for my 3rd night shift at work and I get a call from the opposite side of the state 3 1/2 hour drive saying I have to get down to the hospital because there has been complications with the twins so I call work and say I won’t be in and race down. By the time I got there they were both born on the 24th of may but my little girl had bad heart issues and sadly passed away on the 30th of may I never knew I could feel this amount of pain and not die. The pain I felt from loosing my little angel I wouldn’t wish upon anyone ever. During all this happening I got lost into debt again because I was down there for over a month without work so I took out more loans to try and cover everything but it’s left me barley being able to go week to week just scrapping enough to get the kids everything they need and food on the table I’ve had debt collectors chasing me for a while but I’ve just tried to avoid them because I don’t like talking about all this. I’ve often thought about just ending it all I’d be lying if I said I didn’t but I would never leave my other babies. Honestly I’m just looking for help to get out of this cycle of loans and more loans. I’m not one to ask for money but I’m at the end of my rope and don’t know what else I can do. Just know if you do decide to help it’s not just me your helping it’s my whole family