I’m not quite sure who might come across this request, if anyone, so I hope it’s understandable if I keep identifying information to a minimal. I’m like everyone else here, as far as I can tell. You never expect yourself to end up in the position of begging others for money until that time comes. And I’m sorry. I can assure you that none of us would be here if we weren’t desperate.
So, why am I here? To be truly honest with you, I feel like a fool for making a post along with all these other people with serious issues. I do not have any medical bills that need to be paid, no lawyers that I need to hire, I wouldn’t even consider my family that poor off financially. However, I am a minor. I am still in High School, and it’s reached a point where I can no longer ask my parents for help with this. They don’t think that it’s worthwhile, and I can understand why. I’ve not let on how serious my condition has become.
A few months ago this year, I tried to kill myself. Then, I met the most amazing boy I have ever seen in my life. He was perfect, and soon he was mine. However, he was also abusive. He made me feel worthless. He’d tell me one day that I was the love of his life, and the next that I should end it. He drained me of all my energy with the holy trinity of abuse I’d go through everyday and I effectively ruined my life because I stopped caring. Now, I’m trying really hard to care again. Which is why I need the money. It’s my last hope. I need it for a lot of things, so I won’t get into that, but in the end it all surmises to a form of personal therapy. Whether that be some hobby that requires funding or literal therapy, unfortunately most of the things that can bring you joy in life require the assistance of money. And I know that if I cannot find a way to fund myself for that joy that I will very soon meet my death by means of my own hands.
I wish I could offer something in return. I’d get a job if I could, but that’s a process that takes far longer than I’m able to wait. I’d write anything, but there’s not really a service out there that accepts writing in exchange for currency write off the bat. I’d do anything, but I do not have access to anything. I don’t expect anyone to give me anything, not even a dollar or two. Hell, I don’t even expect anyone to read this. But if you do, whoever you are, wherever you, whatever your own circumstances are: I hope you’re okay. I hope you’re happy. If you are, treasure that. Treasure all that you have and I know it sounds cliché, but truly be thankful for that happiness. And if you’re not happy, I’m so sorry. You’re not alone, and I know that means nothing, but do know that I understand. Maybe not the exact situation you’re in, but I understand how even waking up is a struggle when it feels like you have nothing to wake up for. I sincerely hope one day you’ll have a reason. I wouldn’t wish the torment I’m in upon anyone. I believe we’re all fundamentally good people, so do forgive yourself for any mistakes you have made. That does not mean to pretend that they never happened, but if you cannot learn to forgive then you will never be able to move on. I hope the world has and will give you all you deserve and more.
Thank you x