It is with absolute regret that I would have to come to a site to beg for cash for help to pay my rent.
My start in the world was extremely difficult. I was born to a woman who I believe couldn’t support me as she was going through her own issues that I cannot blame her for not take the blame myself. Due to what she went through and how she dealt with it meant that I was subject to emotional abuse growing up culminating in a suicide attempt after my mother had found her husband and would tell me aged 9 that he was always to be looked after first as he was her husband. As I was a minor I was unable to discharge myself from the hospital resulting in me having to live with a foster carer.
My mother never taught me how to manage money. I was given savings accounts by my grandparents and my mother dipped into them taking all of the money and never leaving me with any lump sum that I could use towards my future.
My poor money management caused me to fall into rent arrears and at my worst time I was in receipt of benefits. I felt that I didn’t want this to be my future so found myself at University to study the arts as I wanted to pursue my passion in sound creation. If I am honest I would have chosen a finance related subject as with my updated knowledge I could have used that to help my sound ambitions.
Currently I am working and breaking even and still in rent arrears. I decided to start a business in drop shipping selling clothing, accessories and homeware. It is difficult as I do need a small amount of funding in order to push my products which I hope to take from drop shipping to actual manufacturing of my items. I aim to grow this as a brand. Having a mentor for that would be golden.
I just think I must push myself to receive better in life. I don’t believe I deserved to go through what I did but I refuse to believe that others are responsible for my situation now. I take full responsibility for where I am and as a result I am doing a huge amount better than I was before. I’ve been going to work and trying to explore my entrepreneurial side. When I make it out of all my difficulties I intend indefinitely on helping others who have been in my situation. I believe that I will do extremely well and also be able to help others financially.
I implore you for help. I really do not have anyone I can ask as most of what I have been through has left me isolated. My mother made sure my family believed I was the trouble maker from the beginning so now I have no support where that is concerned.
Thank you so very much in advance for taking the time to read this and also help me. I am beyond blessed to be able to have a platform where I may do this.
Anything will help. I am grateful for EVERYTHING that comes my way.