Hello to everyone who stumbles across this!
My name is Noah and I’m a 20 year old trans guy who just dropped out of school this year.
I have always struggled with mental health issues due to growing up with a mentally and physically abusing mother. I write this because I am legit hopeless and really want to get help but not without at least giving you my story back at least. At a very young age I got heavy depression and severe selfdestructive behaviour. I’ve been in mental clinics often, had many therapists and really thought I grew after I left my moms and went to a group home. But then as I moved out on my own it just ate me. Theres always another thing I cant handle. I have BPD. Which is mainly just my inability to adjust myself to any emotional situation. I am strong and tough but unable to function in toxic environments which is why I had to leave school soon after my coming out. This is just the narrow surface of my story but I want you to know that through this despair I still am strong and no matter what the voices say. I want to give back, I want to get forward in terms of transition and also I just can’t have debt and losing my place as another obstacle. I feel unsafe in my existence and all I have left to try is this.
So to anyone reading this: Even like 50 cents would make a difference! Trust me I’m sitting here typing this with 1,78 left in my bank account. I’m thinking like bread without anything for weeks. So anything would help me at least pay my bills and get some food ( I mean you can get a lot for 5 bucks and every so little donation would.. mean everything to me. I cant ask my ‘family or friends’ so I ask you, kind internet people.
If you want to help out with anything you got left in your account head over to my paypal: https://www.paypal.me/noahduh
And thanks to everyone. Leave me your instagram or anything in a note so I can thank you personally !