Hello my name is Tayla and I’m 18 years old and a transgender woman. I am trying to raise money to help fund for facial feminisation surgery. The reason I’m so desperate for this surgery is because it causes me severe depression and anxiety, there are no words to explain how difficult it is to live in a body you feel as though you were never meant to be born in! The surgery is meant to help you ‘pass’ more as a woman which I believe would really help take away from my crippling anxiety and depression which is very intense. It gets to the point I can’t leave my house depending on how low my mood is, sometimes I will take random panic attacks in public or in work/college and I will have to leave and go home! I spend a lot of my days crying due to the pain of not being able to live authentically! If I weren’t to have this surgery at some point in my life I would find it very hard to cope, I think suicidal thoughts already but I try my best to stay strong for my friends and family, especially for my mum who is also very suicidal due to her illness (ME) which means she is practically bed bound and can’t do much for herself at all, she has quite a low quality of life due to this illness and I want to be here to support her and help her in every way possible however it becomes hard when I’m finding it so hard to cope with my own life and mental state. I am feeling very dependent on this surgery, I just want to live happily and feel comfortable in my own skin instead of constantly feeling insecure that I don’t ‘pass’ well enough. I am completely begging because I don’t know how much longer I can wait for this surgery I’m genuinely counting on it so that I can live my life more comfortably and hopefully have it reduce a lot of my depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts! Bare in mind I’ve only just turned 18, this is a massive thing to be carrying on my shoulders at such a young age so please I am begging, help me!