Hi. I am Zen. I am a hip hop artist, edm producer, beatmaker, DJ, video game streamer and much more.
Now you might ask yourself, why is this guy here when he has so much going for him?
Well, without blabbing my life story I will explain it as simply as possible.
I suffer from extreme anxiety, agoraphobia, depression, panic disorder, and the list goes on. I wasn’t always this way, only int he last 5-6 years has this happened to me.
I use to believe mental illness was nothing. I believed people made it up for others to feel sorry for them.
Maybe this is Karma. But I digress.
The reason I am here is because Making music, gaming, streaming, creating art in general is my passion and my only escape from the hell I face every day. I have been denied support from the government as they claim my illness is not real in their eye’s, yet the same government will help drug addicts who refuse to get treatment while I can’t even get treatment due to having full blown panic attacks every time I try.
My illness prevents me from getting a job and I’ve had my fair share of online jobs turning me down over the past 5 years.
To add to all of that, I was robbed a few months ago.
My gaming systems, tv’s, clothing, food, cash, gold I had been collecting, everything gone. And because my computer was too heavy for them to carry efficiently, they just ripped out the video card which destroyed my motherboard in the process.. No trace of anything stolen has surfaced and probably won’t unless they end up in a pawn shop. I have bad credit due to a ex gf racking up a phone bill which I am working to fix now, but just to get a TV and Phone I had to finance though MDG as I can’t even afford a used tv and phone.
To add even more to all of that, Covid-19 has caused a global pandemic and the little money I did have went directly into food and health items. I managed to get a motherboard and graphics card from a friend but the card can’t even handle streaming medium quality games which has driven people away from my streams. :(
I have never in my life asked for a handout or anything else for that matter. All I hope to accomplish with this campaign is to replace some of the items stolen from me. I use to make decent money from my music but in the last couple years there has been such a huge decrease it’s hard to get by let alone afford to make music videos with a tiny budget.
I have idea’s to start my own company called Zentopia which will be everything from fashion/entertainment to flipping houses and creating natural health beverages. Sadly with bad credit and no means to get a job, that will never happen. I have done what I could and launched a Record Label and Skateboard company (Without licences as they are expensive) however there is not much money in the music industry unless you have money to promote. My music has gained me around 4 million views across platforms and I am almost at 1800 followers on twitch, 1600 youtube subs, etc.. just from using platforms like facebook to promote with no budget.
Again, I have never done anything like this before. I think I tried patreon but not even a single penny was given.
But to wrap this up
I don’t think anyone will help me, as I have reached out to all my followers and friends with little to no interest in helping me.
I just hope and pray that someone out there knows what I am going through, knows what it’s like to be petrified to walk outside, to go numb and feel like you’re dying on a daily basis.
Any and all help is not mandatory but appreciated. Even if you can’t help me financially I would love to see you drop by my streams or my social media’s. I will always lovingly respond, interact and follow back. It’s the least I can do. I Love helping people and always put others before me but I need a little love back at some point.
My info: paypal.me/SpiritScientist
@ZenStarwalker (instagram, twitch, twitter, facebook, soundcloud, youtube, etc..