Hi, for the sake of staying anonymous, because this is the last thing I want to do, my name is Karen. I have come to this site in hopes that people who share the same heart as me will be willing to help me dig myself out of the hole I have created for the past 14 years.
I started drinking at 16/17, got my first credit card there or after. Alcoholism runs in my family and until April 3, 2017, Alcohol and prescription drugs ran my life. It got really bad in 2016 when I lost my grandmother. She was an amazing woman and my best friend and I began drinking more as I watched her slowly fade away. Then in 2017 I lost my Dad suddenly to a massive heart attack at 62. I didn’t know how to stop my spiral and so I almost overdosed on Xanax to help me stop. I knew my stomach would be pumped and I would have a chance to start a new me. And I did. As of today I am 674 days sober and in complete control of myself. I am also feeling like I’m stuck because drunk me did not care about spending or charging, as long as I had enough money to get drunk through the week until my next paycheck I thought I was in good standing. Sometimes my accounts would be in negatives and I didn’t care. I kept combining my debts into personal loans and more loans and now I have one big one for 30,000 dollars.
Im 30 years old and I don’t have much to show for that. I grew up in a family of 5. My family never had a lot of money but we didn’t know that because my parents always did whatever they could to keep us happy and safe and fed. Now, I have found the love of my life and want to start a family like my parents had. Maybe not 5 kids! But a house of our own, to live comfortably, and happy and in love. I work a full-time job right now but with this huge loan hanging over me I can’t get ahead. And it’s just a constant reminder of the person I no longer am.
With that said, coming from someone who is afraid to ask anyone for anything but will give the shirt off my back in a heart beat, I need extra help from elsewhere. If you’ve read my short story to here, I want to thank you for just that. And if you donate to me, I will pray for you. I believe in good karma and paying it forward. Once I get on my feet I want I help others as I have been helped.
Thank you in advance. And God Bless