Hi, guys im 19 I am the third child of 7 kids from my mother and the last of 5 from my father. My mother married my stepfather when I was 3 she took her first son and I left my other brother with our biological father. She then had 4 more children that I was responsible for my brother left to live in my aunt’s house because the pressure was too much on him I don’t blame him for leaving I just wish he had taken me with him. I had a very awful childhood I was doing laundry at the age of 9 for me and my 4 siblings and when I say laundry I mean wites colored blacks and I’m doing it with my hands too because we didn’t have a washing machine. I grew up feeling like like I don’t fit in because my stepfather had treated his children differently from he treated me and my biological father didn’t even call me, I got bullied but my stepfather’s side of the family even from my biological little sisters that I take care of while my mother worked.
I remember how we didn’t have any power so we had to get light legally so it would be off during the day and we only use it at night we had a very small house the bathroom was outside we had two rooms one for my parents and one for me and my siblings that only had one bed in it and I place where we put the table top stove and the dishes. my mother used to work and my stepfather used to go out and drink, I remember how I had to take my siblings over to the old lady that lived near us so they could get something to eat and sleep while we wait for our mother I had to stay in the dark because the old lady didn’t like me or my mother.
So I was discriminated against because of my complexion because my stepfathers side of the family had lighter skin and curlier hair I used to hate myself because of them. And my mom wasn’t much help for me either because my step father was abusive towards her and it wasn’t discreet I had to sit and watch him hit her, I used to feel angry towards my mom because she never left him. But she said ist because she had no were else to go so idk know anymore.
all of that made me make up my mind that I will go to school and get a good education so I can take myself out of that hell, but I guess god had other plans for me cause the older I got the sicker I became and when I told my mom she said I was lying. I had irregular periods and I would feel the worst cramps even when I’m not on my period, it made me so sick I feel nauseous and dizzy no matter how I complained about it I was told that I was lying or that its because I didn’t want to something. it really affected my learning but I still tried my best even when covered came in and I had to learn from home I didn’t have a gadget and I wasn’t even one my aunt called me to stay with her until she gave birth and because she got c section and it oped back I basically had to have the baby for the first 4 months of her life it was really stress full trying to teach my self while watching a new born luckily my Foods teacher was serious about us learning she made it her point of duty to make us do face to face for her class and I am still happy that she was my teacher I pass her class.
a month after my 18th birthday I got my first job at a restaurant and my bosses where picking on me and I mean really bad I was given double shifts I had to fill in when some one didn’t feel like working, some times I work from 6 in the morning to 10 in the night and I know it doesn’t sound bade but my pay didn’t add up, and I had to be letting a lot of stuff damaging my already damaged body that I still don’t know about. anyways I left there after I was fed up with them shorting me and I got a different job in a call center, and I fainted during work and when I went to the doctor they told me was just polycystic ovary syndrome which means i have cysts on my ovary, I was given i prescription but i couldn’t fil it because i was laid off i got a different job after so long and after working there for a week i start to bleed a lot went to the doctor turned out i was pregnant and i lost the baby and that’s not all i was also told that my cycst has gotten so big it may cause ovarien cancer so i left my job because it was too much hassling on my body i was really depressed still depressed actually.
My mother asked me to leave because my 16 year old sister got a baby and they need the space for her so i was living with these people but I’m getting the sense that they want me to leave so I found a place the bathroom is still building all i need to get some electricity and a few furnitures to move there its, it snot much but its enough seeing that i lived in way worse, i feel i lil ashamed to beg but i don’t know what to do rn. If i have a stable roof over my head il feel much better. the picture i uploaded is a picture of where i am rn that place is were i sleep and ill have to leave it soon i wanted show more photos but it wont make me.