Its embarrassing to be in this situation. Its hard to gather up money each day just to get another package of hotdogs. The rent is several months behind. The car payment is so behind that the repossession man is searching for me but luckily I don’t live in the same place the car was purchased and my only known address is a UPS address. The car insurance has lapsed. Juggling bills has come to an end with nothing left to juggle.
Its scary. I live in a republican state where to be homeless or nearly homeless is looked upon as laziness. I have masked my paypal link as I am afraid of repercussions for years to come from my link being found in such a place – but what else can I do.
I have searched for every potential loan to help struggling people and I have been denied across the board. I don’t want to be homeless again. I have been homeless 3 times in my life. I once walked from NY to Chicago IL because I was homeless.
The thought makes me cry and yet I see no other outcome at this point. Even this post is merely a last-ditch effort. I can’t even bring myself to get my hopes up anymore because I know the harsh realities.
I just don’t know what else to do. I pray all day everyday for God to hear me and take me from this life. I have nothing. I have no one. I have exhausted all my resources. What else can I do except hope and pray?
I have even tried reaching out to organizations that help the poor and homeless to no avail. I simply struggle every day and today is the first day I can’t even get enough change for a meal.
I can only pray that God willing someone see’s this and feels compelled to offer me a hand getting back up.
How much am I looking for? Anything… a dollar, ten dollars, one hundred dollars, one thousand dollars. I am tens of thousands in debt and none of it is credit card bills… all are just living expenses debt.
P.S here is no image included as I am posting this message from a 7 year old laptop with no working camera.
Paypal: https://bit.ly/2LJx9QU (real but masked)