Heyo ! Geez were to start, my name is Rosalie or well that’s the name I have given myself.
For the past 17 years I have lived with my older brother of four years, and my two guardians. My parents have been alcoholics since before I was born and my brother fell into an abusive track with it aimed towards me. I was a mistake, I am reminded that every day by my parents. We have moved 8 times since I’ve been alive, each time increasingly worse than the last, and no we didn’t move for job purposes it was just because my guardians did not like staying in one place I guess? I never really knew. I don’t remember much from before the age of 12 other than my “mom” throwing her high heels at me when she was drunk and my brother trying to see if he could shove me in the fridge or test how hard he could hit me until I bruised. School was much worse, it felt like a super typical “Mean Girls’ movie but in middle school and it was real life. I had eggs thrown at me when I left my house ( The Regina George of my middle school happened to be my next door neighbor ) and I got cyber bullied non-stop. I was told to cut “down the river not across the road” and got hate posts every hour of the day. When I told my “mom” I self-harmed she would laugh and call me a liar. She asked one time what I cut myself with and i told her scissors, she laughed in my face and said that’s not what people use to hurt themselves and I was just attention seeking. This led to me to taking the blade out of a hand held paper sharpener and the never ending spiral of self harm began. I attempted twice and after that realized I just didn’t have the guts to do it. Nothing has really changed I guess. I hardly see my “dad”, my “mom” still drinks and calls me fat, she hits me and blames me for ruining her life and reminds me how much she hates me on a daily base, my brother still lives at home and takes any money i make and beats me whenever he feels the need to hit something. Yes this is a complete pity party and my only wholesome reason for any of this is i am about to turn 18 and I want to leave this house and get away from them ASAP. I want to go out and study Neuroscience, I am incredibly interested in AR and VR study and want to further a career in that area. I want to change my name and become a new person and become the complete opposite of what is expected of me because of my blood family. This is simply for me to have a fresh start.