Hi there, I’m not even too sure if anyone will read this. But if you are reading this, thank you for taking the time to.
I guess I’ll start by saying I am a 19 year old guy from the very bottom of the South Island in New Zealand. My parents divorced when I was 5 and it never really impacted me until I started High School. When I began High School I developed severe Social Anxiety which later developed into Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I have also been battling pretty bad depression after a really bad breakup at the start of 2017. I thought it was love, and it hurt like love. Since 2016 I have been on antidepressants and a part of me wishes I never started taking them as I can hardly remember life before them. I have seen a handful of Psychiatrists, and I saw a Psychologist every week for a few years. Anyway, cut to where i am now, I am still living at home but I cannot make ends meet. I have had a few jobs but I always end up finding something that makes me anxious there and I can only focus on that. And because of that I am currently unemployed but actively looking for work that I am capable of doing! I have an already overdue phone bill that goes up $140+ a month. And on-top of that, my car’s warrant of fitness and registration have both expired and it would be at least $100 to pay off both of those. I have been through tough times before but they have never been as bad as what I’m going through right now. I know there are millions, possibly billions, of people out there who have it worse than me but we each have our own personal hell, and I happen to be going through mine right now. I’m not asking for too much, just enough to get me back on my feet. I will give back when I can, to my community and the world itself. I want to do good, I’m just finding it hard to even get out of bed right now. If you have made it this far, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. And if you happen to be so kind and generous enough to help me out financially, I will forever be grateful to you.
Thank you, peace and love.