After reading several anthropology books, I have frequented existential crises. I am currently struggling with the overall “point” of life. Live on a hamster wheel of eat, sleep, work, repeat; Gain vast riches and invest myself into a shallow materialistic lifestyle, while people in other countries literally starve to death; continue to consume without any intention to give back; become apathetic to the point where it’s socially acceptable to spit on those whose social status is lower than yours? #MotherCulture #Ishmael
Really? Where is humanity going with it’s self centered, self serving attitude? Where is humanity headed with a medical industry that operates more as a business than a beacon of hope for all? A place where you can inject yourself with FREE carcinogens, toxins, aborted fetal cells, animal DNA, and cancer causing ingredients (aka the Free Flu shot) but have to spend thousands on eating healthy, epi pens, serious life saving mediations, and inhalers; how is this possible? How is no one awake?
The entertainment industry is ran by elite pedophiles, our government is filled with money hungry backwards thinking savages, consumed with power, and humanity is left somewhere in between: You either fall in line like a good little sheep, get back on your hamster wheel and work the system, or you wake up, stand up, and demand change.
I am here for that change. I can not stand walking into public and the average conversation consists of celebrities, video games, Netflix binging, and mindless dramatic dribble from petty every day life. Where are the intellectuals? The people who crave more? Where are the humans that thrive on being the best, bettering humanity, and reforming the world? Where are my people?
I am a mother of 3, expecting #4 next June. I am currently attending college to become a Computer Animator. With my degree in hand in the next 2 years, I hope to start impacting the world. I would love to master my software (Maya) and create 3D models of sustainable communities to be built, develop reduced waste agricultural set ups, along with low impact plumbing, and start designing community housing built around growing produce for every district. *Not to be confused with over producing* There is a lot of food that gets wasted. I’m talking about growing enough food for each community to thrive on, not to have a surplus leading to potential waste.
While I’m not 100% sure how to get started, or even where I want to go in this ephemeral life, I am certain I do not enjoy the system set in place, the people suffering, the injustice, the mother culture; the story we have created for humanity and where we are headed. I intend to change it. I’m not even sure an amount I would need. Whatever helps.
Whatever pays for my children to eat so that I may continue to focus on school. Whatever pays my bills so I can work at home at both schooling my children, and myself. Whatever can help buy materials for both my educational journey, and when I am finally able to start on something tangible for the future. Whatever helps me start to build awareness in communities with marches, campaigns, advertising, small starter tasks, even to start donation based services.
I abhor the state of this world, and while I will admit I am not the most empathetic person (I have had to develop self defense coping mechanisms due to an abusive childhood) I certainly can not stand by and watch the world burn. I will try for anyone; altruistic. I just need to hear people say they also would encourage this change. People have no idea they’re on a hamster wheel, a prisoner to multi media, and consumerism. Life shouldn’t be a rat race. Life should be about freedom, art, adventure, science, exploration, wonderment, surviving, thriving, improvement of all species, and overall joyous.
We see nation after nation on anti-depressant, therapy, suicides, harmful behaviors; Why? Humanity wasn’t meant to live like this, working 9-5 to the bone to grind for paper created by a system to use you as cattle to pay back a debt owed to people who control us because our ancestors sold us out. Let’s dismantle this system. Dismantle and rebuild one that works for everyone: focusing on SAFETY, and IMPROVEMENT – Not destroying the land, poisoning our food, and creating pharmaceuticals that do more harm than good because our health system is a business, not a caring facility.
I want more community based help. I want more options for families who are being abused and need a safe haven, for families who might not know where their next meal will come from, for people who are suffering mentally; everything needs to be privatized. Go away from big governments, huge ownerships. We need to take the power back into the hands of the people. You can’t own your land, your vehicles, your house, your own money taxed, and in 2020 there is talk of mandated vaccines for all adults; even if you have a reaction you can not refuse. Where do we draw the line? Why are we continuing to live in a world where they run us?
In conclusion I am open to any suggestions on how to get started, and would appreciate any donations towards my overall end goal.