I realise you probably won’t have time to read this, but if you do come across it, I’m just glad you given me the time and really appreciate it.
Please believe me when I say this is the first time I’ve ever felt so low and desperate that I’ve had to consider this.
I have kids and a partner who have no idea I’m doin this. For the last 20 years I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression since my dad died. I had a brilliant job working for 12 years when I left school. I lost that job as a consequence of my condition. Over the years I’ve slowly got worse to the point where I just can’t hold a job down due to having to take a lot of time off to try and get better. I’m about to lose my latest job which I’ve been off from for the last month. I’ve been on various different medications and just recently decided I had to open up and tell my mother what had been going on which was extremely hard as she’s been to hell and back herself.
I’m now going through the process of having to go to higher professional therapy as I’m suspected to have been suffering from PTSD all this time. No matter how hard I’ve tried to power on for my family’s sake, I just can’t do it anymore. I need to try and get my self better. It’s got to the point where I struggle to leave the house. I’m currently filling out online surveys just to try and pay a few extra bills. My partner is a carer for the elderly in a care home. Her wages barely cover our rent and utility bills.
I just need help with being able to try and get myself back on my feet and being able to support my family through all of this.
If there’s anything you can do for me, you don’t know how much I’d appreciate it. Please don’t worry if not, I’m just glad that you have given me the time out of your day. I’m struggling to sleep right now so it’s also given me a different way to get things of my chest. I’ve chose not to post any debt pics etc as I don’t want to put that pressure on anyone. Whatever help I receive will be unbelievable
Thanks for your time