Hello, my name is Lani. I am a real human being, 27 years old. Born and raised in Texas. I live at home with my single mother and 3 other siblings. We are in desperate need of some financial assistance. We are not poor, we are very blessed. We have a roof over our heads and food on the table. But a roof and food are not always guaranteed. We should know, we have been poor before.
I think about now is the time to explain why I’m asking for money at 1:33 in the morning. To do this, I’d have to go back to my childhood and relive the traumas that shook my family to the bone.. traumas that still haunt us to this day.
I come from a large family. I had a mom, dad, 4 brothers, and 4 sisters (we didn’t have a television :p). We seemed so normal on the outside, and everyone was impressed with how well behaved my siblings and I were. But behind closed doors, we suffered a lot at the hands of my father. He was and still is a truly disturbed person. I don’t believe it’s necessary or appropriate to go into detail, but my father is currently in prison for violent sexual abuse against 8 of his 9 children(the last child was born after he left the house)
My father and mother separated in 2004. A few months later, my mom was going to allow him to come back home, and that is when we all decided to come forward and tell her everything he had been doing to us. We begged her not to let him back in the house. My mother had no idea what my father had been doing, and I watched her grab her heart and gasp for breath after we all came forward with our stories. She herself was a battered wife, but an amazing wife and even more amazing mother. She never knew what was happening to us because my father was a master manipulator. She thought he just liked spending time with us and we liked spending time with him. She stayed with him for that very reason. And the reason we never told her what was happening is because my father owned several guns and intimidating knives. He threatened us all, not with our own lives, but with the lives of our siblings and beautiful mother. This is called aggravated sexual assault with a deadly weapon. And it is one of the charges he had against him when he decided to take a deal and plead guilty. He only got 20 years in prison total. He was only charged with the most severe cases of sexual abuse involving myself and 2 of my sisters. This all happened in 2004.
Fast forward to 2019 and it is only myself, my mom, and 3 siblings. 4 of my siblings are not on speaking terms with us. We used to be such a strong family. We relied on each other and shared more than our fair amount of tears together. But the damage my father did to us has not been erased despite years and years in therapy. The court awarded us free counseling/therapy for the rest of our lives. And boy have we used it. We have all been in therapy for 15 years now and yet we still sleep with weapons under our pillows. We all suffer with different degrees of anxiety. We are extremely hyper vigilant to the point of losing friends and/or significant others. The 4 siblings that have turned their backs on us are heavily addicted to drugs and are unable to form lasting connections with people. It is heartbreaking to see and I miss them dearly and always pray they are happy and as healthy as possible despite their addictions.
So, the reason I am begging for money at what is now 2:28 in the morning, is because my father will be getting out of prison in 2024. I know, that is 5 years from now. But my father told us if his secret sin ever came out, he would do everything in his power to kill each and every one of us. We are not only desperate, we are terrified more than we have ever been. We’ve been watching the calendar for 15 years and the closer we get to his release date, the more panic attacks we seem to have. My mom did everything in her power to raise 9 children on her own and she has worked harder than I have ever seen a human being work. She has always put food on our table even when we were without running water for 3 years. She kept us safe and healthy. And I could never have asked for a more loving mom. But with 9 kids who suffered from extreme ptsd, we have always struggled with money.
This is my 5 year plan. This can only be possible with your support and possible blessings of donations.
1. I would first like to get my 4 siblings with addictions into a rehab facility. I need them to be clean. Not only for their health and well-being. But also because my father will find them and I am terrified for their lives. They need professional help before it’s too late.
2. I would like all of us to change our names. This will give us an advantage and protect us from being easily found.
3. I would like to move my family out of the state of Texas. The more distance we can put between my father and us, the better.
4. I would like to give my mom a little cushion money until we can take over supporting her. I don’t want my mom to work anymore. She is exhausted and deserves to be taken care of for once in her hard life.
5. I would like to have a little bit of money to start my career as a victim advocate. I want to help people who are in trouble. I know what it’s like to feel hopeless and beaten down. I want to help others survive the way I have survived.
6. I would like to take a self defense class. I feel it will be beneficial for many reasons if I am able to defend myself and my family. I have been trained to use a gun. And though I hope to never have to use it, at least I know I will be prepared if I have to protect my life and the lives of the ones I love.
All of those things mentioned above can only be possible if we get a head start. Please if you are somehow still reading this, please help my family and I. We are good people. All I want is for us to be safe. And I will definitely be paying it forward any chance I get. I truly want to help people. But I need to help my family first and expand outwards.
I am not sure how much money I would need to accomplish everything I have mentioned, but any amount will definitely help. I am thinking anything $25,000 and up would put us in a good spot where we could get my siblings to rehab and change our names. Thank you for reading this and bless your heart in advance to anyone who is willing to help us. You are truly amazing and will be blessed in return.
My paypal link is PayPal.Me/angellove1111