It’s hard as hell to swallow my pride and ask for help, but I’m out of options and beyond ready to just give up. To say I’m ashamed or embarrassed would be an understatement. I don’t know where to start. My life started in a downward spiral about 2015 and no matter what I do, I can’t seem to get back up enough to get ahead at all or even get the slightest break. In 2014 I made the worst decision to date. I let myself fall for someone in prison that I had a crush on in high school. I got so wrapped up in this guy and a lifestyle i had never known, I forgot who I was and where I was going in life. I lived on my own, was working full time, and was in school on my way to getting my nursing degree. 2015 he got out, introduced me to drugs, 2016 I started trying to get clean and had cut ties with the guy. 2017 I got into an abusive relationship and was pressured to use again. Finally, 2019..a great year for me. I reconnected with my high-school sweetheart that I hadn’t seen or spoken to in over 10 years, he has helped me get clean, get my confidence back, and constantly shows me what it is to be loved. The not so great part now- he moved back here after his divorce and unsuccessfully tried to reconnect with family. We want so badly to leave Missouri, for many reasons..the main ones being changing my surroundings and our safety. I’ve been in the medical field all of my life but now I’m currently appealing a disability denial (I’m unable to work at this point) and he’s a mechanic doing his best to provide for us as much as possible. 2021-We had planned to stay with his aunt rent free until we could get on our feet but my parents offered to let us stay with them for a year (I had upcoming dr appointments) but wanted us to pay rent. No big deal. They’ve doubled the rent and now require us to save another half the rent amount in a separate account on the side. (They take a majority of his check) Our car has hit 120k miles and is now needing things replaced/repaired that we have to do piece by piece. We’re behind with last year’s personal property payment, the tags are expired since February, it needs insurance, (he’s recently gotten tickets for the expired tags and no insurance and needs an attorney), and maintenance (it is our only vehicle right now), behind on the payment, his license needs to be renewed, we now have nothing saved for a security deposit to move into our own place. I feel like we’re drowning and I just want to give up. We need help and I don’t know what to do.
I’m unsure how to categorize this since it’s a little bit of everything.
$238-personal property
$196- 2 months car payments
Over $700 car maintenance/repairs (converters, mode door/blend door, thermostat, etc sensor, breaks)
Plus the rest of the mess.
Asking for $1000-$2000. Really anything at all would be a tremendous help.
Thank you
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