This is a really hard thing for me to do. To ask for help. I am here laying in bed
crying and feeling hopeless. I am working long hours and trying to pay all this
debt down. My husband died from Myeloma ( Myeloma is a bone blood
cancer. Your bones can break by just coughing) last year. I took care of him
the whole time he was sick. I was so worried about him getting COVID that I
wouldn’t allow anyone in the apartment to help. I thought if I did everything
right I could save him but I couldn’t . He died. He was the love of my life.
Losing my husband was like seeing an atomic bomb go off and then trying to
pick up the pieces. I just started working again again at a minimum wage job
but the three years that I was off taking care of my husband has put me in a bad
situation financially. I can’t keep up with the credit card payments that we lived
off of when my husband was alive. I would like help to pay them down or off. I
am ashamed that I’m even doing this. I am trying to survive the worst time in my
life and I also have this debt hanging over me that gives me anxiety attacks.
God, please forgive me for asking for money. Three years ago my life was perfect
and now it’s pure torture. I am asking for help. Thank you.