Well i don’t really know where to start because im not exactly the type of person who is able to let my wall and pride down that easily especially to ask for help from people i don’t even know.
Here goes (deep breath) i am 28 years old and i am a product of my father he raised me solo bolo (by himself) since i was just 8 months old.
Growing up was not always the easiest coming from the background my dad did and most certainly not planning on being a father at 32 had its roller coaster ups and downs, however i remember my whole childhood from him showing me how the sun orbits the moon and fallows the shadow on earth with the lamp a golf ball and a tennis ball to the moment i asked him to show me a few chords on the guitar where he indubitably became an absolute ball of nerves because he did not want to overwhelm me and scare me away from trying it.
So he showed me 3 chords and left me to it that was when i was about 12 years old since then i’ve been writing music, composing songs, and grew into what i have been convinced to be identified as a musician artist.
My dad built a business from ground up for himself that specializes in amplifier repair mostly tubed amps but we can generally fix anything my dad my ace duce my best friend in the whole world but my parent first to not need be reminded i unfortunately lost him a year ago which is the most horrific, scary, lonely and challenging thing i have ever had to overcome or attempt to.
Im not sure how to do this but here goes nothing, i have been accepted into the local collage here where i live which i am just awaiting financial aids approval which im almost confident i will and then i can start my 4 semester schooling for my bachelors in musical engineering i am currently not mobile because the first car i bought which was also the first car i truly ever had that was mine i made a rookie mistake and let a friend barrow it for one evening and that is all it took now it is inoperable.
I am certainly looking for a job as i am trying to start my dads business back up after the year of silence from the talent and society contribution from my family which what family i have left is very little lastly i am in a new place i have been for 3 years going now i moved with hopes of better opportunity for my dad and i for work and all around environment but a year after i finally got my dad to move to where i am now he passed away so me knowing almost nothing less then him and i since i was 8 months old has abruptly came to a screeching halt when i tried to wake him up dec 21 2019 worst day of my life.
To conclude my saga which i hope is filled more with information about my and my dads life and not so much of a whiners cry and hopes to there being no distinction of the uses of my situation to attract pity the bottom line is i absolutely cannot get off of my feet by myself i have finally came to the conclusion its time to ask for help so moral of the saga is i need a car for transportation to school (which will mostly be online i believe) but also for repairs and to seek a job and get some kind of ball rolling that can help me get going.
I plan to pay everything back somehow someway i just do not want my fathers time and dedication raising me and being such an awesome dad that i could never repay him for it other then making something of myself is not wasted or in vein as well as me with a goal to open my fathers music shop again one day which i try to keep a positive mind and use the negative energy (which there is quite the quantity of that) to be the best me i can be for my dad and myself my mom left when i was eight months old but 10 months old i was blessed with the most wonderful human being i could ever call mom, she says “i put my arms out and your dad put u in my arms and that was it you’ve been my baby ever since u may not have grown under my heart but you grew in it” shes the only thing i got left to help me keep going in this world now and days but i have a goal, a dream, and a promise to uphold i would be so grateful if that you could help me get started on my journey this is me all 100% who i am no more no less i hope one day we will not have to ask for help this way or if at all anyway thank you to whoever reads this entire thing with a considerable mind, in best regards, all my love and respect
Sincerely Shyla Burr.
P.S. (my youtube video i have done it all by myself lyrics i wrote instrumental i composed and recording and video recording all by myself except my dad plays the guitar in it while sitting on the couch with judge judy muted and one leg on thd coffee table (so sickeningly awesome) Is under “The reality of a heavy heart shyla Burr” hope to be as good a person and parent as my dad one day hope you like it! It is One of my biggest accomplishments which isn’t many….yet lol thanks again. ✌