I am in my late 20s and I have just begun to process the stuff I went through as a little kid. For years I have struggled with depression and anxiety along with several chronic illnesses that were, in hindsight, caused by the years of child abuse I faced. It got to the point where I was contemplating suicide every day. This past year I said enough was enough and I cut out the family members who abused me and started to fix my life. I went to therapy, started doing yoga and eating healthier. I meditate everyday and make sure to keep a positive attitude most of the time. I am trying really really hard. Within the past few months I notice my depression start to lift. Life was beautiful again. The leaves on the trees looked so magical dancing in the wind and I could feel and enjoyed the suns warm rays across my skin. I could smell people cooking delicious dinners in my neighborhood and just sitting with my dog in a sun beam was the most glorious thing. I still find myself in tears now writing this thinking about how much joy I had been missing all those years. I realized I hadn’t experienced happiness for almost my entire life.
Upon emerging from my lifelong cloud of depression I am realizing how bad my finances are. For years I had trouble holding jobs because of my health issues, and I used credit cards more than I would have wanted just to get by. I have accumulated a good amount of debt and I feel like it is keeping me from enjoying this new life I have found without depression. I just need to get rid of this credit card debt so I can get on my feet and start life over. I want to be a voice for victims of child abuse. I want to get out in the world and help not only children who are currently in these terrible situations but also the adults that never had the chance to be rescued. The ones who carry on with their lives and struggle day in and day out to just exist. No one should live like that. Any help that can be given would be so incredibly appreciated and I thank anyone you chooses to make a donation.