Hi, I really need a caring soul to read this right now. I am unlucky, love too deeply, and trust far more than I should. Are those bad qualities in a person? For me they are. Ever since I quit my job in 2019 for another, it has been bad, bad, bad, and more bad. First off, job offer was retracted. Second, it took almost 9 months to find employment. Third, it was March 6, 2020, I was laid off by the 3rd week due to Covid. I was able to receive unemployment which at the time seemed like the right way to go. (This came back to bite me in my booty February 2021, I received a bill from the state for $12,7xx due to an error they had made. I am promising you that my struggle is ridiculous!) With all of this happening my daughters are staying at my nieces so that they have access to the internet to do their school work. That was what was in my daughters best interest right? Since I couldn’t afford to obtain internet and was struggling to just buy $10 worth of gas for my car. In my mind, I thought everything was good for my girls, nope, not at all. My youngest started acting out and cutting herself brutally. She was entered into a mental hospital. The day of this happening, as my daughter is packing a bag, they start tag teaming my daughter and griping at her for vaping. My mom and niece went to a juvenile intake officer and told them that I had men in and out my house and that my daughters were being subjected to porn and smut as in saying I was trying to turn out my daughters. Okay some mothers may be sorry enough to do that but not this momma. I will not have any of that and will cause serious injury to anyone that tries, oh did I mention that fact that I am married for crying out loud and we are not disgusting sex craved maniacs! Anyways, I lose temporary custody to my niece. She’s not even 30 years old and my mom still cleans her house for crying out loud. This happened in November so Happy Thanksgiving everyone!! Why that was so detrimental is because of this, (just go pop you some popcorn and grab a drink because you aren’t going to believe what happens next!) Backtracking a little bit now, on February 2, 2017, I attempted suicide and obviously I lived. My mom says to me after my hospital trip and mental hospital trip, that she “envied that I had the courage to even try.” Oh really, did that make you proud of me mom? Are you kidding me right now?? The only reason I snapped out of my self loathing and thoughts of killing myself were my kids! I chased everyone out of my ICU room, including my mom. While I was in the mental unit, all I wanted to do was see my girls. I swallowed every ounce of frustration towards my mom and apologized and begged her to bring the kids during visitation. She says “I’ll not promise anything but I’ll let them decide.” Oh lord, I already knew she was going to try and talk them out of it and I sat in dread and worry waiting to hear my name called for visitation. The time had come for visitation, finally I hear my name and I make my way to the cafeteria. I go in and see my girls, my youngest called out to me and my oldest had big tears in her eyes and my heart instantly lost its shadow that sat there in anger and sadness. They gave me my heart back, they gave me my life. So now I am without power, going through the change, unable to secure employment, still don’t have custody back, not even allowed visitation unless my mom supervises, I don’t even have any paperwork showing what I am guilty of to not have custody of my daughters back, nothing in writing whatsoever, I’m broken and it just keeps adding up. So I need help and I don’t like asking for handouts but I need approximately $3,000 for my light bill because Entergy took it upon themselves to hold 9 months worth of bills during Covid and sent them all in 1 envelope even to me GB, I owe $12,800 to the state of Arkansas for their mistake of sending me an overpayment when in fact I did not even receive that much money, period, and I need $350 to get my vehicle tagged, $1000 for insurance, and another $2000 to fix my credit. Also, I owe $15,000 in back house payments and guess who my landlord is, yeppers, my momma. She recently told me that she is going to have to sell my home if I don’t start catching up the payments. I would have had tax money and stimulous for last year but my mom robbed me from being able to claim my daughters by claiming them herself so there went any hopes of having a nestegg and left me completely broken. I want to hire an attorney, but that’ll cost another $6,000 and I cant come up with any money for any of my bills. My PUA has been denied due to me being completely honest and writing down actual earnings when there were any. So that’s my plea, if you feel like you would love to help me then please do because I need it badly.